COnflicted -
Hi there - Sorry this has become such an issue in the Conflicted household, but it's not an uncommon one. It's werid isn't it? At 18 I can remember thinking how much I appreciated my apartment. I wouldn't have given it up for anything. I also remember thinking I knew so much more than my parents and have often said lately I wish I knew 1/2 of what I thought I new 30 years ago. Would be wonderful to be that smart now.
I would be taking a big guess on a lot of things here - The apartment probably has more strict rules than home - or people watching what he does. So he can't smoke pot there or isn't comfy doing what he's been doing in your house. Either that or he's this big man child that is going to do what he wants to do - and is scared to sleep alone. No reason for him to NOT want to sleep alone, be alone, live alone. Something is amiss there. I'd find out what that is. The fact that you're paying for it is ....well that's probably for your sanity, and since I don't know where you live - there could be legal ramifications even though your son isn't smoking under your roof. Landlord may have told him/caught him - and now you're liable. Not sure -
So he's back home, not working, and has HOW many months until he graduates? Pretty scary - THEN what? You plan on throwing him out then? Or are you going to continue to support his behaviors AFTER school because you like the rest of the parents I know don't want him to have a record and ruin his chances for a good school? Yeah see there's the rub. YOU have dreams for your kid. YOU want him to get a job, YOU want him to go to school and graduate, YOU want him to perhaps attend college and work part time. YOU want....YOU want...and what does HE want? Well he's 18 - he's got no clue - so at this point part of your parenting steps in and says (almost screaming) YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU WANT - I'LL TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT - YOU WANT AN EDUCATION, A CLEAN RECORD, A JOB, AND SECONDARY EDUCATION - and a better job - and get on with your life - make money and support yourself. THAT"s WHAT YOU WANT. I know I'm in my FORTIES - and I've made mistake....s....and I MADE THOSE MISTAKES because------someone let me..and I ....I think......I think maybe it's about time I allowed you to make those mistakes too. Wow......yeap. NO.....I won't let you make ANY mistakes I'm going to make sure that you finish school I'm going to make sure that you don't go to jail, I'm going to make sure that you go to college, I'm going to make sure that you get a job, and get that secondary education I am going to make sure you do this by living your life for you and living mine and monitoring your life - every minute of your life - while I live my life - and......
Eventually - ???? You have to make choices. Do you let them fall, fail.....and walk away from them and really let them suffer the consequences and allow YOURSELF permission to hurt just as badly with their decisions and the fall out? OR do you continue to try to live a parallel life for them, stress yourself out - and maybe be that one in a (pick a number) parent who gets lucky and makes it with a kid who really, and finally pulls their head out of their kiester, lives the after school special movie life and makes it despite all the obvious signs that they were on a path of self-destruct and have been for years and NOTHING you did, do or would have done could have predicted their outcome - and you just wasted valuable life, time and lessons by trying to fix things - that weren't going to be fixed no matter HOW much you interfered and fixed things?
Supporting them is one thing - Trying to live their life for them, isn't doing anyone a bit of good. My son hasn't graduated at 21. He has WAY worse issues than not getting a diploma. To me - Ikept thinking - IF he'd only get an education - he could get a job, and then - things woudl turn around for him. It didn't happen that way, even IF and when he had a job? It didn't turn around for him. He had trouble keeping a job. He had trouble following directions, he had trouble listening to the boss, he had issues with EVERYONE. A diploma wasn't going to change that. And as far as a fast food job? He could have lied and said he graduated. No one checks that at 20.....and it wouldn't have made a difference for your kid - he is smoking dope, he's running with a crowd - he's not listening to simple SIMPLE rules at home. HOW in the world is he going to listen to rules at a job? He's not. Not likely.
YOu want to know what to do? I'd say get yourself and your wife into therapy. Not that there is ANYTHING wrong with either of you. You're both just worn out and need some good answers from someone who can see both sides of this war zone and say - OKAY - here's the plan. Let's try this. I bet your son would be shocked if you did XYZ. Let's give that a go. Have you tried saying this? And stick with it. These kids divide and conquer the best marriages. I don't know that they do it on purpose but it seems like it. Once we started family therapy it did get worse at first but then it got MUCH better - my fiance and I started communicating better, and we're on the same page - and eventually when it came time to toss the boy out? We were on the same "OKAY TIME TO GO" page and did it together. It wasnt me saying "HE HAS TO GO" and him going "OH I don't think today ......well I don't know - I'm not saying anything." We totally had a plan and stuck to it -a nd had given our son every opportunity to turn it around and he knew it was going to be - GOODBYE - btu just not - handing him a bag of clothes and a ticket and taking him to a train station. THAT kinda floored him. And THAT"s the day he knew we were done playing with him, his mouth, his behavior and all the group homes, the camps, the Residential Treatment Center (RTC)'s, the therapists, the psychiatric docs, the shrinks, the hopsitals, the medications, the foster parents, the respits.....we.WERE. done. period.
He's not perfect now at 21 by any means, and well goodness =he's 21 his skull hasn't even stopped growing together it's unlikely his brain is done developing - so credit where credit is due - but he's made incredible strides forward.
In any event you and your wife are NOT alone. The struggle you describe is ongoing in thousands of houses - in many countries....and at least now you have support and people that don't judge. Just give friendly suggestions -
Hope it helps.