Is it possible to live a seemingly normal life with a conduct disorder? I'm 31 years old, married with 2 children & a part-time job. However I've always felt abit odd. I'm on an anti-depressant as I had a breakdown when I was 32 weeks pregnant but I think I became depressed around 13. I have lots of "mates" but no close friends & find it hard to have meaningful conversations, which I've put down to shyness but really it's more awkwardness. I hate talking about myself & would rather listen than speak. People have commented that I'm blunt & abrasive although I've always felt misunderstood. I know my eye-contact is terrible & I have to tell myself to do it. & I would never hug/pat/hold hands with anyone other than my kids. I find certain stuations bewildering, such as supermarket shopping as there is too much choice & my brain just turns off. I like my life to be like groundhog day & get v.fuddled if plans should change when I'm all sorted. I'm not a great conversationalist as I just can't think of things to say, not tongue tied, just vague & foggy. Could this be an slight, underlying disorder or just a brittle, unsociable personality?