Hey it's been a long time since I've posted anything here. The last couple of weeks my son has been hitting himself in the head and choking himself more often that usual. He is constantly calling himself stupid, a moron, a jerk, etc etc. He will get upset and state that he is going to kill himself. He goes to day camp through the YMCA, which he has managed to mostly stay out of trouble due to it's a small group and structured. Except he has been sent home twice in the last two weeks due to this increase in these kind of behaviors. Last week he was sent home because he was having a very tough mental day, choking himself and shouting that he was going to kill himself. Yesterday he was sent home because another child stated that he had threatened to get a knife out of his backpack and kill him. Of course, none of the staff members heard this. My son is now suspended for Monday, and they will be investigating the situation. I do believe that my son probably said he was going to get a knife and kill himself. There have been previous times when comments we directed towards himself and other children have believed that it was towards them. I am so afraid they will remove him from the program. They make us pay for camp, of course 2 WEEKS in advance, and state that if a child is suspended that they will not refund you. I don't know what I will do, as I am running out of money. I can't pay my bills, and now I am facing the possibility of not being able to work and losing my job over one child's account of a situation. I called his psychiatrist, who of course directed us to go to the children's hospital here. And of course, after 4 hours of sitting around and a $200 copay, they did nothing and discharged my son. No one wants to do anything to help a 6yo child. I have turned everywhere for help and they all beat around the bush. I truly believe my son may have a mood disorder in addition to the ADHD/ODD he was diagnosed with. I have expressed my concerns to his psychiatrist who repeated blows me off and doesn't believe that he does. I am bipolar myself, and often wonder if he may be also. He had an episode like this prior to starting ADHD medications, so I am confident that it's not just his medications affecting his mood. We are having somewhat of financial crisis due to childcare expenses, and I have not been able to take him to see his therapist at all this summer. He also has another counselor that is state funded and visits my son in school, but has only been to our house once or twice all summer. My son doesn't particularly like that counselor, and I'm not sure he's helping much. He is much younger and inexperienced I feel. The therapist is great with him though, and is also my therapist, which really helps with our family issues. On top of everything, I have been in a mixed state, primarily deep depression, for almost 3 weeks. I fear I may be making my son's moods worse, and I can't afford to see my psychiatrist for help. I am a single parent with little to no help from anyone else. I can't get away from all of this for a few days to regroup. I'm just so tired and don't know where to turn. I guess my question is, if any of you are also experiencing such problems with your child, have you found anything to help bring them out of such an episode?