Carson has always been :Irritable, small personal space, hiding under desks, running from teachers/principals, easy angered, withdrawn, friendless, he can also talk, talk, talk. Then shut down. He is very slow to warm up to people. He has a hard time lookin gothers in the eye (but not much trouble looking AT me, but sometimes he won't. He is very impulsive. He has passed each grade. Almost failed last year (failed an entire 6 weeks because he basically didn't/wouldn't/couldn't do his work in class). He likes to wear his socks inside out. His sleeves inside the hoodie or a jacket must feel perrrfect. Last year he chewed on his shirts. Wanted a hoodie sweat shirt on ALL THE TIME. Calls names A LOT (stupid, idiot, retard, butt face) to other people when he is angry (called a kid a jacka$$ and a SOB..but he *said* it). He HATES writing. Writing assignments in his notebook. Writing essays. Copying definitions. Cursive? HA! refuses to do it. Can't tie his shoes, button his own jeans. Or ride a bike. He doesn't want to or claims he just "can't".
Recently he started Celexa. Three weeks ago. There was AMAZING results. He was not hiding anymore. He was doing his work. He was playing with other children outside. He even showed interest in a girl in his class. He voiced a desire to play a sport. His grades got better.
Then...he became very aggressive. Physically so. I found out today that he actually "choked" two kids at school. One one day, then the other the next. Attacked his younger brother (6) three times in a week.
Today went like this: Woke up in a good mood. 10 minutes later he was near tears and irritated that his Maly-O Meal wasn't cool. It was all *my* fault. He was hateful, rude and disrespecting me BIG TIME. When we left to get in the car he started tellin gme how much he hated school, it's dumb. Literally five minutes later he is crawling all over me in the parking lot of school, hugging me, loving me... At school today he did "some" work while in OCS. When I picked him up he was very excited to see me. Also, his step brother (8) was coming over!! He wanted to play. When we got home he couldn't find his Darth Vader mask (obsessed with Star Wars). It was all my fault. He had a meltdown. I told him to go to his room. He slammed his door, screamed at me, threw a toy against the wall. After letting him cool off for about 5 minutes I went in there. He was sitting on his bed, crying. Told me he loved me asked if he could get up. Assured me he could control himself. He came into the living room and picked up the TV remote. Watched a few minutes of a cartoon and then my husband came home. Husband asked for the remote. Carson whined, crawled all over the floor... After being asked for the remote AGAIN he freaked out. Had another breakdown, running from the room. Screaming he "hates" his life. He wants to die, no one loves him". Then, while sitting in his room he was mumbling in anger and I heard him whisper LOUDLY... Sh*t! I went to talk to him about it and he seemed remorseful. Hugged me.
His moods flip faster than I can blink!! We recently added Risperdone (again) to the Celexa and Intuniv. He hasn't been on it long enough to see any improvement.
His grades improved with the addition of Celexa. His moods got worse.
He has a 504 plan in place (which causes me to laugh my
off--they don't seem to go by it. Or they do for a few days.
I am trying not to throw my hands in the air. Blah! Blah! Blah! UGH