I swear God is speaking to me...I have been streaming the church service every Sunday and Wednesday and I absolutely love it!! It is filling something in me that has been empty for some time and I physically feel it in my heart. I can't explain it but it feels real good so I am going with it. But I must admit, I always get somewhat annoyed when they talk about money and giving and never understood why everyone would cheer and get excited when they talked about giving and passing the offering around. I don't know why...but anyway, Wednesday night, Connor and I sat down to stream the service (he curls up on me and watches, too; he dances and claps to the music.). Lo and behold after the music, they brought the rehab that my daughter is in up on the stage!! I screamed in excitement and looked for M and we spotted her - smiling big and bright! Connor pointed to the phone and exclaimed "Momma!" <3 It was SOO cool! Some of the women were graduating and the church was recognizing that. Sharon Thompson, the founder also known as Granny, spoke and gave out diplomas. It was inspiring and awesome. After they were done and went back to their seats, the pastor said - THAT is where your money goes! YOU plant the seed and this is part of the harvest. Turns out the rehab was able to build the dorm for mothers and children largely because of the church's donations. And I got it. I get why people get excited to give now. I got the message. Anyhow, Granny announced that the program is now a minimum of a year instead of ten months (I know M has no issue with that - she will most likely stay long after that giving back.). Granny also announced that their success rate for the past few years has gone up to 87%!!! That is amazing!! I received a letter from M that same day on Wednesday - it was all about how she truly forgives me, and she wrote about some good memories of when she was little. She thanked me over and over for everything and told me how amazing I was. She thanked me for supporting her in my last letter because she thought I would be so disappointed in her for her little bump. I wrote back saying I have NO doubt how hard this must be and how hard it has to be being away from Connor. There will NO doubt be bumps in the road along the way - it is all about how she handles the bumps. She is STILL there. She is doing it! She is 100% committed to getting better and how in the world could I not be proud of that?? <3 husband was confused why she would write that she forgives me. I explained to him that this was a good thing. It means that she is truly letting go of past resentments and any wrongs that I may have committed or that she even thought I committed. One thing they were working on with M is that when she would think back on her childhood, she would remember bad times instead of the good and the good times FAR outweighed the bad - but it was the bad she would focus on. So her letter shows movement forward. Two more weeks will mark three months that she has been there so far. I am so, so proud of her and I see such an amazing difference in her. WOW. I swear, even seeing her streaming through my phone, you can see a light around her... Sorry for the sappy upbeat post but I think we all need to be reminded that it CAN happen - there is light... Kid's night is next Friday! Woohoo!! husband and I already booked a spot at a nearby campground for the weekend. We will have Connor on Saturday night with us but the campground is close to home so if he won't sleep, I can drive home with him and husband can pack up the next day. Either way, I am so excited for some alone time with hubby in the woods!