I am in such a place right now. Between sadness and anger. husband was talking to his Stepdad on Monday. father in law and mother in law were going to pick up the girls from Horse camp and Gym-camp. In-laws paid for this. husband and I had and apt. father in law asked if they could all go our to lunch and then shopping. husband said he didn't think this was a good idea. 4 hours of horse back was A LOT for K and she has 2 more days of this, then it is Christmas Eve and then Christmas. He said (nicely) if they could just take them to their house and be mellow for the afternoon? father in law lost it. (which is unlike him). He yelled, "I guess we will just feed them and put them to bed or what ever!" Mind you they were picking them up at 12:30! husband lost it and said what the F' are you talking about? They went rounds and husband tried to explain once again that K can not do more than one activity in a day... father in law acted like he has never been told this. This led to the words, "Self fulfilling prophecy" coming out of his mouth. "We have created this." husband said he is so sad that this is the way he feels. It ended with husband saying they need to go and talk to our psychiatrist. father in law said whatever, he would go. But he does not believe in this. We made an apt for Jan. 5th. Oh and Monday night K was a wreck and that night she broke down and raged. Told us she would not go back to Horse camp. This morning, she still would not go. I have no idea what else the in-laws did with her after they picked her up, but of course they did not have to see that part. So husband met with them today, so we can at least TRY and have a decent Christmas. 3 hours of yelling and crying with mother in law, father in law and husband. They said 95% was MY FAULT and 5% was maybe Mental Illness. They blamed it all on me, I was too strict. I was mean to K. Treated her harsher than N. K has said that she is afraid of me and that she thinks I like N better. (She says that carp to me about others!!!) They said they do not believe in Mental Illness so much, then mother in law would say she does believe... father in law thinks it is BS. They said they think the only way to save us as a family is to go to family therapy. They all agreed, I need to. husband is not going to back away from his family. They are making plans on moving here full time. I am po'd, if they felt this way why didn't they make it clear before, I would have never moved down here to be close to family!!! So I have to let these things go. I have to *get over* these things. mother in law does not like me. I do not really like her or father in law now. How in heaven do I do this??? I just feel so defeated. I feel so beat up and ganged up on. I just feel like giving up. If I didn't love husband, I would walk out right now. Part of me feels like doing it anyway. I just don't know if I can do this. He is at a game with his Brother. I am sitting here crying. I feel like I can never parent the girls now. I feel like am looked at as the whole problem, no matter what the psychiatrist says. The only way to keep K stable is to stick to shcedule to try to help her maintain her calm. They never see her crying in my arms at night. The times she is screaming for me to make it all better. The years we have fought to help her. The stinking violence. The bruises the bites all over my arms and legs. I have never raised a hand to that kid. Yes she pushes my limits, but my gosh... I am only human. I love that kid. I just don't know how to get over this. I am sorry this has dragged on, I just needed to get it out.