I've made the decision to no longer be an active member of the tweedles treatment teams. I will work personally with psychiatrist & tdocs & mental health CM. In all other matters I bow to the individual teams decisions. This has been a long time coming ~ a recent health scare has forced the issue. I no longer can be a part non stop demands, the increasingly inpatient requests. Once I made that decision I cried as I felt like I've failed kt & wm somehow. I know it isn't the case but somehow it feels that way; just the way if felt today when guardian ad litem for wm wanted to know why I wasn't willing to be his legal guardian upon his reaching 18. I'll still attend mtgs as I can; I will sign paperwork when necessary. I may even suggest things now & then. I will no longer carry the caseload I've been carrying since day one. The stress has forced me to my knees one last time. I'm now enjoying a few new sketches that I'd like to paint. I'm fine tuning the last one. I'm scoping out a travel easel & practicing my piano with great joy instead of exhaustion. More importantly, I'm learning just what the injury to my brain has done & how I need to process things differently. What it takes me to make a valid & informed decision. When to just stop & nap. I've given the tweedles their individual team members telephone numbers if they have concerns that I don't need to address. It's a bittersweet thing....very bittersweet thing.