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<blockquote data-quote="New Leaf" data-source="post: 679943" data-attributes="member: 19522"><p>"Across The Universe"</p><p></p><p>Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup</p><p>They slither wildly as they slip away across the universe</p><p>Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind</p><p>Possessing and caressing me</p><p>Jai Guru Deva OM</p><p></p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p></p><p>Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes</p><p>They call me on and on across the universe</p><p>Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box</p><p>They tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe</p><p>Jai Guru Deva OM</p><p></p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p></p><p>Sounds of laughter, shades of life are ringing through my open ears</p><p>Inciting and inviting me</p><p>Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns</p><p>It calls me on and on, across the universe</p><p>Jai Guru Deva OM</p><p></p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p>Nothing's gonna change my world</p><p></p><p>Jai Guru Deva</p><p>Jai Guru Deva</p><p>Jai Guru Deva</p><p>Jai Guru Deva</p><p>Jai Guru Deva <em>[fade out]</em></p><p><em></em></p><p><em>The <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sanskrit" target="_blank">Sanskrit</a> phrase is a sentence fragment whose words could have many meanings. Literally it approximates as "glory to the shining remover of darkness"</em></p><p><em></em></p><p><em>leafy</em></p><p><em></em></p><p>Steady State. Breathe. Be.</p><p></p><p>I have been listening to this song over and over. It is very calming. The first couple of times, I broke down and cried like a baby. Sobbing, and I let myself cry it out. I think it was the imagery of the little girl and the red balloon......</p><p></p><p>It could be that Cedar, and it also could be that, <em>that is why</em> they were able to get away with the horrible things they did. "She cries at everything...." (true)</p><p>"We didn't do anything......" (false) "Just stop crying Leafy, and they will stop." (false) I think Cedar, I tried to change myself in a hundred thousand ways, I was so desperate for it all to stop. Maybe this is why the song is resonating with me as well "Nothing's going to change my world." Meaning, we can achieve this steady state, in spite of anything around us, but also, when I was little, nothing could change my world. I was stuck.</p><p> I can see this Cedar. It took me a few times to read it to understand. It is true, their emotions played a huge role in how my day would go. That was a constant drumbeat in my young life, to grow up like that.....then have it all denied. It is amazing I am even here.</p><p> The grail quest. Yes.</p><p></p><p> Yes, fully human. Damaged, not defective.</p><p></p><p>Thank you Cedar, I believe it. I am no longer feeling that I am betraying anyone by writing of it. It is true. What else they said about me was false. Who wouldn't cry? Who the h-e-double-L would not cry? Heck yah, I cried, it hurt.</p><p> Hah Cedar.</p><p>Well okay then Biatch on Wheels, yes sh** happens, if anything at all, we do have a right to be every part of ourselves and defend ourselves.</p><p></p><p>For me, that came out in my surfing, I had to work hard at the initial fear, then I was a pirate surfer. Meek, shy little old me would not have survived out there, other surfers would have seen that and dumped all over me. Surfing probably saved me. It takes some cajones to look at a wave and be half petrified, half excited and charge it. There is no timidity allowable, one would get crunched with hesitation. Either ride the wave, or it will ride you. Then, there were the other surfers on the inside sections who would try to drop in, dangerously so, I got hurt a couple of times.Unacceptable. This was my place where I could ROAR. No one was going to take that away from me. I created this maneuver to keep that from happening. The El Zoro, cut um off at the pass. Guys called me a biatch, because I was aggressive. Actually, it was because I was <em>out surfing </em>them.</p><p>Hey, I may have to get back out there.</p><p></p><p>Well, I have to correct my phrase about growing cajones as Hoku tells me, "Mom why do people say that? Here is what I saw on FB......."</p><p></p><p><em>“Why do people say "grow some balls"? Balls are weak and sensitive. If you wanna be tough, grow a vagina. Those things can take a pounding.” </em></p><p><em>― <a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/7009636.Sheng_Wang" target="_blank">Sheng Wang</a></em></p><p>Ahem......</p><p></p><p> This makes sense, how it sticks......instead of forgiving the mistake, it is freaking analyzed a million times. Harsh.</p><p></p><p> Add, "don't cry Leafy, just stop crying..."</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p><img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/emoticons/starplucker.gif" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":starplucker:" title="starplucker :starplucker:" data-shortname=":starplucker:" /></p><p></p><p> You know Cedar, <em>I love this about you.</em> Sisyphus Dung beetles rolling their booty by the stars of the milky way? (Booty, I must be stuck on that pirate....)</p><p>How awesome is that? I would have never known this without your eyes. Thank you for finding those reflections in puddles.......and sharing them with us.</p><p> Cinderella. Beautiful and kind and smart.</p><p>If we cannot cherish and take care of ourselves, we cannot begin to take care of others.</p><p></p><p>Yes Cedar, you are so smart. I am glad you didn't listen, and are here to share your knowledge.</p><p>If you haven't written books already, you need to.</p><p></p><p>(((HUGS)))</p><p>leafy</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="New Leaf, post: 679943, member: 19522"] "Across The Universe" Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither wildly as they slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind Possessing and caressing me Jai Guru Deva OM Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes They call me on and on across the universe Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box They tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe Jai Guru Deva OM Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Sounds of laughter, shades of life are ringing through my open ears Inciting and inviting me Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns It calls me on and on, across the universe Jai Guru Deva OM Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Jai Guru Deva Jai Guru Deva Jai Guru Deva Jai Guru Deva Jai Guru Deva [I][fade out] The [URL='https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sanskrit']Sanskrit[/URL] phrase is a sentence fragment whose words could have many meanings. Literally it approximates as "glory to the shining remover of darkness" leafy [/I] Steady State. Breathe. Be. I have been listening to this song over and over. It is very calming. The first couple of times, I broke down and cried like a baby. Sobbing, and I let myself cry it out. I think it was the imagery of the little girl and the red balloon...... It could be that Cedar, and it also could be that, [I]that is why[/I] they were able to get away with the horrible things they did. "She cries at everything...." (true) "We didn't do anything......" (false) "Just stop crying Leafy, and they will stop." (false) I think Cedar, I tried to change myself in a hundred thousand ways, I was so desperate for it all to stop. Maybe this is why the song is resonating with me as well "Nothing's going to change my world." Meaning, we can achieve this steady state, in spite of anything around us, but also, when I was little, nothing could change my world. I was stuck. I can see this Cedar. It took me a few times to read it to understand. It is true, their emotions played a huge role in how my day would go. That was a constant drumbeat in my young life, to grow up like that.....then have it all denied. It is amazing I am even here. The grail quest. Yes. Yes, fully human. Damaged, not defective. Thank you Cedar, I believe it. I am no longer feeling that I am betraying anyone by writing of it. It is true. What else they said about me was false. Who wouldn't cry? Who the h-e-double-L would not cry? Heck yah, I cried, it hurt. Hah Cedar. Well okay then Biatch on Wheels, yes sh** happens, if anything at all, we do have a right to be every part of ourselves and defend ourselves. For me, that came out in my surfing, I had to work hard at the initial fear, then I was a pirate surfer. Meek, shy little old me would not have survived out there, other surfers would have seen that and dumped all over me. Surfing probably saved me. It takes some cajones to look at a wave and be half petrified, half excited and charge it. There is no timidity allowable, one would get crunched with hesitation. Either ride the wave, or it will ride you. Then, there were the other surfers on the inside sections who would try to drop in, dangerously so, I got hurt a couple of times.Unacceptable. This was my place where I could ROAR. No one was going to take that away from me. I created this maneuver to keep that from happening. The El Zoro, cut um off at the pass. Guys called me a biatch, because I was aggressive. Actually, it was because I was [I]out surfing [/I]them. Hey, I may have to get back out there. Well, I have to correct my phrase about growing cajones as Hoku tells me, "Mom why do people say that? Here is what I saw on FB......." [I]“Why do people say "grow some balls"? Balls are weak and sensitive. If you wanna be tough, grow a vagina. Those things can take a pounding.” ― [URL='http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/7009636.Sheng_Wang']Sheng Wang[/URL][/I] Ahem...... This makes sense, how it sticks......instead of forgiving the mistake, it is freaking analyzed a million times. Harsh. Add, "don't cry Leafy, just stop crying..." :starplucker: You know Cedar, [I]I love this about you.[/I] Sisyphus Dung beetles rolling their booty by the stars of the milky way? (Booty, I must be stuck on that pirate....) How awesome is that? I would have never known this without your eyes. Thank you for finding those reflections in puddles.......and sharing them with us. Cinderella. Beautiful and kind and smart. If we cannot cherish and take care of ourselves, we cannot begin to take care of others. Yes Cedar, you are so smart. I am glad you didn't listen, and are here to share your knowledge. If you haven't written books already, you need to. (((HUGS))) leafy [/QUOTE]
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