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<blockquote data-quote="New Leaf" data-source="post: 679966" data-attributes="member: 19522"><p>Yes, thank you Cedar. I don't think I was shy back then, repressed, that's it. Because I am not shy at all.</p><p></p><p> You know, I see this with my sis encounters. I no longer need her to admit to the things she did, that used to be important to me. Now, I see that would be impossible for her. Upside down. Too painful. It's okay, that's on her. But, and this is a big one, I have to figure out what I will do the next time we are face to face. When I am strong and stand my ground with my opinion, she gets pissed off. That's a crass explanation, but it is true, red in the face sputtering, high falootin "how dare you cross me" pissed off. So, that shows me, I am still not thought of as an equal. Too bad. I am an adult. I am entitled to my own opinion and perspective. She can have hers, that is her right. So the same for me.</p><p></p><p> I like it.</p><p></p><p> This is so. I think also, that people who have a habit of taking advantage of others, can spot a non-self cherisher across the room. It is written in invisible ink on our foreheads.</p><p> I like simpler. It is grassroots. Kinder.</p><p></p><p> So true.</p><p></p><p> Also, art. Art is born of mistakes. Who knew an artist could lay down a canvas and schlep paint here in there in wild dashes and brush whips, and call it art. Abstract expressionism.......</p><p><img src="http://ichef.bbci.co.uk/news/660/media/images/79443000/jpg/_79443281_pollock-rexfeatures_411298b.jpg" alt="" class="fr-fic fr-dii fr-draggable " style="" /></p><p></p><p>I don't particularly care for it, but what a genius.....how prolific. Jackson Pollack, he used house paints......</p><p><strong><span style="font-size: 12px"></span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="font-size: 12px">$140,000,000. Jackson Pollock – No.5, 1948.</span></strong></p><p></p><p>Was his first painting a mistake? Who knows, but he was on to something. He believed in what he was doing.</p><p></p><p>I have this idea to start out small, like your simple, kinder concept.</p><p>Keep a journal of small drawings and go from there.</p><p>For me.</p><p></p><p>I am brutally critical of my work. Must stop. If I look at stuff that I disliked at first, then go back to it, I say to myself, "Well Leafy, that is actually pretty cool...."</p><p></p><p>Retraining, I need.</p><p></p><p>As always, my appreciation for your response Cedar. Thank you so much for holding my hand and my heart.</p><p></p><p>So tenderly</p><p></p><p>(((HUGS)))</p><p>leafy</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="New Leaf, post: 679966, member: 19522"] Yes, thank you Cedar. I don't think I was shy back then, repressed, that's it. Because I am not shy at all. You know, I see this with my sis encounters. I no longer need her to admit to the things she did, that used to be important to me. Now, I see that would be impossible for her. Upside down. Too painful. It's okay, that's on her. But, and this is a big one, I have to figure out what I will do the next time we are face to face. When I am strong and stand my ground with my opinion, she gets pissed off. That's a crass explanation, but it is true, red in the face sputtering, high falootin "how dare you cross me" pissed off. So, that shows me, I am still not thought of as an equal. Too bad. I am an adult. I am entitled to my own opinion and perspective. She can have hers, that is her right. So the same for me. I like it. This is so. I think also, that people who have a habit of taking advantage of others, can spot a non-self cherisher across the room. It is written in invisible ink on our foreheads. I like simpler. It is grassroots. Kinder. So true. Also, art. Art is born of mistakes. Who knew an artist could lay down a canvas and schlep paint here in there in wild dashes and brush whips, and call it art. Abstract expressionism....... [IMG]http://ichef.bbci.co.uk/news/660/media/images/79443000/jpg/_79443281_pollock-rexfeatures_411298b.jpg[/IMG] I don't particularly care for it, but what a genius.....how prolific. Jackson Pollack, he used house paints...... [B][SIZE=3] $140,000,000. Jackson Pollock – No.5, 1948.[/SIZE][/B] Was his first painting a mistake? Who knows, but he was on to something. He believed in what he was doing. I have this idea to start out small, like your simple, kinder concept. Keep a journal of small drawings and go from there. For me. I am brutally critical of my work. Must stop. If I look at stuff that I disliked at first, then go back to it, I say to myself, "Well Leafy, that is actually pretty cool...." Retraining, I need. As always, my appreciation for your response Cedar. Thank you so much for holding my hand and my heart. So tenderly (((HUGS))) leafy [/QUOTE]
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