threatening to leave. He has been stressed & very angry the last couple of weeks. After what I thought would be a good respite weekend together alone, husband announces that he cannot take special needs children AND a sick wife. I'm beyond hurt - I'm numb. kt overheard husband yelling at me & she's a nervous wreck. He's heading out of town this coming weekend - heading out to a cabin in the woods someplace up north. Leaving me here with kt & no PCA help (she's asked for & been given this coming Friday & Saturday off for family). I'm a bit panicked - if kt goes off the deep end will I be able to physically handle it? The MXT causes me to sleep so deeply during the day I miss much of what is going on. I caught kt taking a PRN medication today with-o asking. So medications are locked up again - I have to track this stuff. I just don't understand. I've handled so much more in the past 8 years. husband is working (thank god) & taking kt to therapist appts. He visits wm for an hour a week. He's unhappy & doesn't want to deal with this. I fear he isn't taking his medications or that he's started drinking again. I can't tell which right now. If it's a matter of medications, he just needs to do it - if he's choosing alcohol over family again I'd prefer he doesn't come home this coming weekend. Thanks for listening....I'm too tired for this kind of nonsense & betrayal. Too old & too far into this.