Mattsmom277
Active Member
Hi everyone. I do read, and comment on other posts when I can. I haven't posted anything about us much.
My Matt had moved back to our province at the beginning of the summer. He is miserable. I've only seen him a few days although he's only an hour and a half away from me. He is planning to come for a week, maybe two, then he is heading back out west after realizing it was a mistake to return here. His life is out there now. I'll miss him but I want him happy and thriving and hate seeing him so unhappy here.
My easy child and I are moving Monday morning into a new rental apartment. This place is far too expensive and we've got a great deal on our new place. It's bittersweet because a few weeks ago my relationship of nearing 10 years ended. He was my best friend and I thought we'd grow old and share our entire lives together. Instead, easy child and I are now located 1 1/2 hours from our home town and we don't really know anybody here. It's a small town, but I actually like the little town. It is hard however without amenities and no vehicle now. I'm finishing up packing the house this next few days, as well as making sure all of S/O's things are packed separate for pick up Sunday evening. It's really hard separating our lives into different packing boxes and seeing and touching all of his things. I am hoping that the move to a new place with only our own things and no memories as a family there will help. easy child is just sad about it all. She believed in my S/O and doesn't really remember a time when he wasn't around, he came into our lives when she was quite young.
If anybody can spare any good juju, I'd certainly appreciate it. It's a struggle financially right now, and more of a struggle to hold myself together emotionally. I'm trying to look forward and consider new possibilities for what my future could look like in my "new normal". Thankfully easy child was accepted to a full time arts major high school program so has that to look forward to starting in September. I'm a bit concerned about financing her needs for the program, such as quality photography equipment etc. I'll figure that out though. I'm more concerned about finding a way to feel happy and fulfilled without my best friend beside me. The end was unexpected and quick with no "closure" and really, there is no way to get "closure" anyhow after nearly 10 years when suddenly one afternoon things are still great and by that night, you are alone.
My Matt had moved back to our province at the beginning of the summer. He is miserable. I've only seen him a few days although he's only an hour and a half away from me. He is planning to come for a week, maybe two, then he is heading back out west after realizing it was a mistake to return here. His life is out there now. I'll miss him but I want him happy and thriving and hate seeing him so unhappy here.
My easy child and I are moving Monday morning into a new rental apartment. This place is far too expensive and we've got a great deal on our new place. It's bittersweet because a few weeks ago my relationship of nearing 10 years ended. He was my best friend and I thought we'd grow old and share our entire lives together. Instead, easy child and I are now located 1 1/2 hours from our home town and we don't really know anybody here. It's a small town, but I actually like the little town. It is hard however without amenities and no vehicle now. I'm finishing up packing the house this next few days, as well as making sure all of S/O's things are packed separate for pick up Sunday evening. It's really hard separating our lives into different packing boxes and seeing and touching all of his things. I am hoping that the move to a new place with only our own things and no memories as a family there will help. easy child is just sad about it all. She believed in my S/O and doesn't really remember a time when he wasn't around, he came into our lives when she was quite young.
If anybody can spare any good juju, I'd certainly appreciate it. It's a struggle financially right now, and more of a struggle to hold myself together emotionally. I'm trying to look forward and consider new possibilities for what my future could look like in my "new normal". Thankfully easy child was accepted to a full time arts major high school program so has that to look forward to starting in September. I'm a bit concerned about financing her needs for the program, such as quality photography equipment etc. I'll figure that out though. I'm more concerned about finding a way to feel happy and fulfilled without my best friend beside me. The end was unexpected and quick with no "closure" and really, there is no way to get "closure" anyhow after nearly 10 years when suddenly one afternoon things are still great and by that night, you are alone.
You know I am always here! I wish I lived closer to help.
