It's been a while since I've ventured over here. Life was relatively stable with M for a while and C was getting a bit more managable and both started seeing a therapist they like. School started and M was doing really well at school, but occassionally having a difficult time with the "it's so hard to be good at school that I can't do it anymore at home." Then over the past month, he started saying certain homework was too hard (even though it was definitely easy for him and I was willing to help him) and he would meltdown over it. This started increasing in frequency over the past few weeks and then this past Friday a hint of school refusal reared it's ugly head, but he decided to go just before the bus arrived. Somewhere in there we also had a physical rage where he was punching me and kicking me. Now today (Monday) he refused to go to school altogether, so he's "grounded" (no tv, no video games, no friends, no computer, and he's *supposed* to stay in his room for the duration of the school day). Since 7:30 am it's been a non-stop battle and by now my brain is a jumbled mush (I'm sure it's overrun with anxiety by now). We've had at least 4 episodes of punching/biting/kicking me and occasionally charging/hitting his 3 1/2 yr old brother. And I've got 4 more hours until husband comes home to help. I just look at things and wonder how did we go *so* quickly from STABLE to THIS (essentially where we were pre-medications) in so little time. And all over again I feel like saying, "What on earth do I do?" I feel lost, spacey, and overwhelmed. And on a side note, why does M always pick the days I have THE MOST THINGS TO GET DONE to pull this ? I have soooooo much to do (like write a teleclass for a call I'm supposed to run at 8 pm tonight!!!!) and now NONE of it has gotten done! AGH! Talk about add to the stress. Ugh.