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<blockquote data-quote="AnnieO" data-source="post: 363549" data-attributes="member: 6705"><p>FW - right there with you. Imprisoned by locks, trapped by abusive behavior, cannot afford to send the child somewhere useful.</p><p> </p><p>On another thread, someone mentioned Boys & Girls Clubs. I'm going to find out what I can.</p><p> </p><p>I've gone through - crying, because I am upset with myself that I cannot "fix" Onyxx. Because no matter what I do, it's unappreciated. Anger - because no one seems to care (besides the people here). Not husband or BM, not the DR court, not the juvenile court, not the police, not the schools. Enabling - because I just cannot stand the behavior any more and just want some peace. And hurt. Oh, so hurt - that you give your love and trust to someone who just shreds it.</p><p> </p><p>Yeah, I've been to the point I wanted to hurt someone. I haven't. I don't believe I would, not intentionally. But the thought's there. I figure - if I didn't do it when Onyxx was punching and kicking me last summer, but tried to back away instead - I probably won't.</p><p> </p><p>Just because you love difficult child - doesn't mean you don't hate him, sometimes, too. Deep loathing - what a great way to say it.</p><p> </p><p>{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Am there, doing that... I know... Many others do, too. You aren't alone.</p><p> </p><p>Oh yeah - and what MWM said.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="AnnieO, post: 363549, member: 6705"] FW - right there with you. Imprisoned by locks, trapped by abusive behavior, cannot afford to send the child somewhere useful. On another thread, someone mentioned Boys & Girls Clubs. I'm going to find out what I can. I've gone through - crying, because I am upset with myself that I cannot "fix" Onyxx. Because no matter what I do, it's unappreciated. Anger - because no one seems to care (besides the people here). Not husband or BM, not the DR court, not the juvenile court, not the police, not the schools. Enabling - because I just cannot stand the behavior any more and just want some peace. And hurt. Oh, so hurt - that you give your love and trust to someone who just shreds it. Yeah, I've been to the point I wanted to hurt someone. I haven't. I don't believe I would, not intentionally. But the thought's there. I figure - if I didn't do it when Onyxx was punching and kicking me last summer, but tried to back away instead - I probably won't. Just because you love difficult child - doesn't mean you don't hate him, sometimes, too. Deep loathing - what a great way to say it. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Am there, doing that... I know... Many others do, too. You aren't alone. Oh yeah - and what MWM said. [/QUOTE]
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