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<blockquote data-quote="recoveringenabler" data-source="post: 616562" data-attributes="member: 13542"><p>I love your poetry Cedar, it is so visual and real...........our creativity is a healing salve for our Child within............. to appear..........and become whole. I imagine your poetry has been a soul saver, for you and for those fortunate enough to be a part of it............thank you so much for sharing it with us.</p><p></p><p>I believe that in many cultures horses are seen as power, there is a comforting symbolism in the ladies riding white horses...........white meaning purity............traveling over "black blasted lands"..........toward the dawning.........very nice Cedar..........just beautiful. Your words touch the child within me who shared a similar early fate.</p><p></p><p>Those dreams about you not being able to see are so powerful and you gleaned the messages they were showing you. Interesting that the picture of the eye being torn open was so meaningful to you...........I hesitated to include that picture because it really is so graphic............but it also seemed so true............and your willingness to "see" now is profound.</p><p></p><p>I've been thinking about dreams since you asked and although there are many, one comes to mind which eclipses all the others.....I think I shared this already...........I remember reading that certain Native American people believed that periodically we have what they called "big" dreams which depict ones life in a meaningful way. .............this dream is that for me..... On my 40th birthday I had a dream which had me in my grandmothers home finding a locked room which I found the key for. Once inside I discovered a closet which had red dresses hanging of the smallest size to a women's size. I instantly understood that that meant that women had been abused on both sides of my family for many generations and it was my job to stop it. I found my daughter and placed her on a table (she was about 9 in the dream, not her actual age) and I very carefully shined a light over her, which in the dream meant that I was cleansing her of the past family history. In real life I felt from an early age that my "job" was to stop the abuse. From 7th grade to now, that has been my primary commitment even though it wasn't always that clear to me.............it is now.</p><p></p><p>Like in your poem, I have had many a staunch ally, which fits my own belief system of "when the student is ready the teacher appears." I have been most fortunate with therapists, healers, friends, people who've shown up to help me and I believe wholeheartedly in being available to be OF support to others as I have been supported. There are MANY of us wounded children creating new lives for ourselves and ensuring that the children after us grow up healthy and loved and safe.</p><p></p><p>If we can open our eyes and see the truth, change our perceptions, heal our wounded inner child and change our responses to our own children so that they can see the truth of who they are, we will have, in my opinion, fulfilled our parental responsibility and at the same time, we free ourselves.</p><p></p><p>On New Years Eve, my daughter posted a FB message that said she wanted to mend her relationship with her daughter and her step daughters. That she missed them. I could be wrong, but it seemed like a small step in the right direction. She has never said anything like that before. That last email I sent her that I mentioned to you, said a lot about how much she has hurt her daughter and me. I believe her actions of the past have caught up with her and she is facing her truth..........and I'm sure it ain't pretty either. But for her or any of us, that is the only way out of our own darkness.........we have to walk through it to get out in to the light. </p><p></p><p>I also believe that if we have an intention, a commitment, no matter how challenging that is, if we hold on and maintain our commitment, we are given the tools, people, insight, help and information we require to make that intention happen. Like that quote by Goethe, one of my favorites............</p><p></p><p><span style="font-size: 15px">“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth that ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.”</span></p><p><span style="font-size: 15px"></span></p><p><span style="font-size: 15px">I think that quote exemplifies the path I undertook at 12 years old, to heal myself so that the abuse stopped with me. I've worked very hard to untangle myself from the unhealthy ties with my family members, so now, all the responsibility for them is on them, no longer on me.........exactly where it all belongs. I believe we are now ALL free........</span></p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="recoveringenabler, post: 616562, member: 13542"] I love your poetry Cedar, it is so visual and real...........our creativity is a healing salve for our Child within............. to appear..........and become whole. I imagine your poetry has been a soul saver, for you and for those fortunate enough to be a part of it............thank you so much for sharing it with us. I believe that in many cultures horses are seen as power, there is a comforting symbolism in the ladies riding white horses...........white meaning purity............traveling over "black blasted lands"..........toward the dawning.........very nice Cedar..........just beautiful. Your words touch the child within me who shared a similar early fate. Those dreams about you not being able to see are so powerful and you gleaned the messages they were showing you. Interesting that the picture of the eye being torn open was so meaningful to you...........I hesitated to include that picture because it really is so graphic............but it also seemed so true............and your willingness to "see" now is profound. I've been thinking about dreams since you asked and although there are many, one comes to mind which eclipses all the others.....I think I shared this already...........I remember reading that certain Native American people believed that periodically we have what they called "big" dreams which depict ones life in a meaningful way. .............this dream is that for me..... On my 40th birthday I had a dream which had me in my grandmothers home finding a locked room which I found the key for. Once inside I discovered a closet which had red dresses hanging of the smallest size to a women's size. I instantly understood that that meant that women had been abused on both sides of my family for many generations and it was my job to stop it. I found my daughter and placed her on a table (she was about 9 in the dream, not her actual age) and I very carefully shined a light over her, which in the dream meant that I was cleansing her of the past family history. In real life I felt from an early age that my "job" was to stop the abuse. From 7th grade to now, that has been my primary commitment even though it wasn't always that clear to me.............it is now. Like in your poem, I have had many a staunch ally, which fits my own belief system of "when the student is ready the teacher appears." I have been most fortunate with therapists, healers, friends, people who've shown up to help me and I believe wholeheartedly in being available to be OF support to others as I have been supported. There are MANY of us wounded children creating new lives for ourselves and ensuring that the children after us grow up healthy and loved and safe. If we can open our eyes and see the truth, change our perceptions, heal our wounded inner child and change our responses to our own children so that they can see the truth of who they are, we will have, in my opinion, fulfilled our parental responsibility and at the same time, we free ourselves. On New Years Eve, my daughter posted a FB message that said she wanted to mend her relationship with her daughter and her step daughters. That she missed them. I could be wrong, but it seemed like a small step in the right direction. She has never said anything like that before. That last email I sent her that I mentioned to you, said a lot about how much she has hurt her daughter and me. I believe her actions of the past have caught up with her and she is facing her truth..........and I'm sure it ain't pretty either. But for her or any of us, that is the only way out of our own darkness.........we have to walk through it to get out in to the light. I also believe that if we have an intention, a commitment, no matter how challenging that is, if we hold on and maintain our commitment, we are given the tools, people, insight, help and information we require to make that intention happen. Like that quote by Goethe, one of my favorites............ [SIZE=4]“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth that ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.” I think that quote exemplifies the path I undertook at 12 years old, to heal myself so that the abuse stopped with me. I've worked very hard to untangle myself from the unhealthy ties with my family members, so now, all the responsibility for them is on them, no longer on me.........exactly where it all belongs. I believe we are now ALL free........[/SIZE] [/QUOTE]
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