I am a stepmom to 2 and a mother of 2. All children live with me and my husband. He has an 8 year old son CC that i have been raising since 6 months old. At the age of 18 months everything went downhill. CC was kicked out of 4 daycares because of biting (making kids bleed) and physically abusing the other children. At 2 i had to quit my job to stay home with him. He broke everything in his reach, continually played with dirty diapers and ate contents, and was banned from playgrounds for his violence. When school started at age 4 we were recommended to get a psychologist and evalution because of his numerous incidents at school. Home and school is the same behavior no variations. He was dagnosed bipolar and adhd. Doctor put him on numerous medications to find the right one as none seemed to work. For one year a combo of concerta, respirdal, and guanfancine controlled this child but no amount of upping it or switching medications could turn him around after he started expressing more and more violent behaviors. He has been on and tried on almost all spectrums of mood stabilizers and adhd medication. So we hospitalized him for the first time at 6 (we have been avoiding this for 2 years) No help. change doctors new medicines and tons of counselors nothing. second hospitalization 6 months after first was in 45 days and they called me to go get him because they felt they couldn't help him anymore. So down on the hospital thing endured having him home and dealing with 504 plans then resource, then alternative schools. Finally i just have him homeschooled. Unfortunately, I have a 1 year old and he has tried strangling him and suffocating him. After this incident another hospital stayed 7 days (he played the doctors this time he knows the system and just agrees and tells them what they want to hear) evalution for autism did come out of that stay. Evaluation showed he is on the spectrum but not severe enough to be labeled autistic. What do I do if he really does do something that cannot be reversed (ie seriously hit one of my kids or someone at school) i do not know how i will handle that. I am a very educated person and I feel and have been told that i have done everything in my power to help this child. My marriage is very happy and my other children are outgoing wonderful children in spite of getting physically abused everyday. I am to the point of packing my bags and leaving or trying to get long term help (which we cannot afford). He needs serious help and I really want whats best for him and my family but the only solution i have right now is to put him in care of the state. I have no other options. PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!