Hi everyone, I've been a member of this board for about three years or so, but rarely post and haven't been reading in a long while either. I'm a little pushed away by the term "conduct disorder" and the way children with diagnoses that are very different from CD (which is in fact a specific behavior disorder) are written about as if there is no difference. At least, that's how it sometimes felt when I was still active. But tha tmay be, I'm a difficult child adult not a parent, and I didn't have a diagnosis at the time and feared being put into the box of CD/ODD even though I believed this was incorrect. If I read wha tmy old sig said, it must've been aroudn February 2007 that I last posted here. I was in an independent living training home at the time and in the mental health system to be diagnosed for my GFGness. I was diagnosed with a form of autism in March of 2007 and started in some treatmetn services (outpatient). I moved to another city called Nijmegen, Netherlands (I am from the Netherlands) by 08/2007. I wasn't sure I coudl live independdently, but it was said to be my only option as supported livign didn't exist. So I went there and started at university majoring in linguistics. Unfortunately I started having severe meltdowns (I've always had meltdowns to some degree) and was constantly overloaded. I ended up in a crisis where I became suicidal and was in constant meltdown by late October, and was consequently hospitalized psychiatrically 11/02/2007. My autism records had been lost when I moved, so I had to be diagnosed all over again. I was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome in Dec by a psychologist who works with the local autism team (he doesn't work for inpatient place, I have a doctor who is clueless about autism here). By chance, today I finally had access to the full version of my newest treatment plan as opposed to only the team members' notes, and there was a DSM classification in there. I was surprised to find out that someone had labeled me with impulse controld isorder not otherwise specified sometime. I have no idea when I was labeled (well, sometime within my hospital stay) and by whom cause no-one informed me. I find it a little confusing as I don't know how whoever diagnosed me decided I have this, and it's pretty complicated to distinguish between problem behaviors resulting from overload or communication problems or another autistic trait and problem behaviors that are truly impulsive (which I do have as well) - too complicated for clueless doctor to do, and it does matter since simple behavior modification will not work. Okay, only last Monday I was saying that I was worried that they'd decided I was a behaviorally disturbed person and needed to be put into a behavior modification program (I've had time-out as a consequence, but it's not so much the time-out room per se that's punishing me but the "we dont'care about your feelings as long as you behave" attitude that goes along with it, and that attitude continues even though I can't be put into time-out anymore). OH well, maybe I'm just a defensive stupid difficult child who thinks she can manipulate everyone. In any case, my doctor says I'm stable and claism every problem that I experinece (worries, sleep problems, etc.) is due to stress and will go away when I'm in new placement (I won't go back to live independently anymore), but this might take years due to waiting lists. I am currently on a closed admission ward, but may be moved to an open resocialization ward, which is a place where you'll learn to go back into society after having been hospitalized for a long time. I'm not sure about this but will see.