Well, today has been a rough day... I don't even know where to begin. Baby Emily is now around 8 lbs. and they are concerned about how big she is already with me still having 3 more weeks to go... The Maternal/Fetal specialist is reccomending that I am induced once I hit 39 weeks (which is 2 weeks from today). There is also rising concern over her left kidney (the healthier of the two) - It now apprears to be getting worse than it was before. I then went over to the Pediatric Urologist and he gave me even MORE bad news... He is concerned that she may not have a "strong enough" kidney on either side to support her needs even as a little baby. (which we won't know for sure until she arrives & is a couple of months old) He also told me that in the future at some point that she may have to go on dialisis or get a transplant depending on how she does as she grows and gets bigger. I guess the plan is that she will need to stay at the hospital for at least 5 or 6 days after delivery to have further tests run - ultrasounds, bladder x-rays and blood tests to monitor kidney function. I am now sooo scared about what is going to happen with her that it almost is making me sick with worry - I can't stop crying either. I know that there is nothing that I can do right now and that worrying won't change anything but how do I stop what I am feeling inside? I go back to my regular OB on Friday and I hope to find out what he feels will be best as far as when I deliver - I just hope the anticipation of it all doesn't stress me out to the max. Please continue to keep Baby Emily in your prayers and I will keep you updated as more information is provided to me.
