Hi, most of you know me around here talking about my difficult child, well my next son, he's 6, has really been displaying some odd odd behavior, well odd to me. I want to give you a little quick history 3/06 , when he was in Kindergarten last year, the school really pushed me to test him for ADHD (he was inattentive, he had bowel movements in the trash cans instead of the toilet, odd things he never did at home) and even though I didn't see this stuff at home, they pushed and pushed so I took him to a ADHD psychologist. He did some testing with him in the office, he met me me alone on another day, he had the teacher and myself fill out papers, and at the end he said he had ADHD hyper and attentive kind. So he suggested me taking him to his pediatrician. doctor. and get a recommendation for drugs. So I did this that week. She gave him a Rx for Strattera 18 mg. I wanted 1 week to start this, I gave it to him and he freaked out! And by freaked out - I mean call 911 for him because he was hallucinating spiders and webs. Screaming mommy Oh God please save me, you could not talk to him, he was jumping from couch to couch to table. I have never seen anyone "trip" on drugs but this looked worse then what they show on TV I know that. 911 ambulance took him in. The told us he was having a medical reaction to the Staterra and not to give him anymore, but since it was time released it would be out of his system within 12 hours. They sent us with some Ativan I think it was, well by the time we left for home, got it filled he was hysterical again, back to the ER. Long story short, 5th ER visit more then 36 hours later, he was admitted and transferred after he had to be physically restrained given shots of Ativan and other things to get him to calm down, he had like seizures. He was in the ICU in the Children's unit for 5 days while this drug left his body and we dealt with the issues of coming off the Ativan as well, lowered breathing, panic attacks. Now, a year later, in 1st grade teacher is sooo impressed with his attention, he loves school. And although has trouble with speech (we are looking into this) he is on schedule and gives 110% efforts! My concern is for the last year or so, he's had some odd phobias. Bugs #1 (hence why he hallucinated these I was told) he will shake, swear there is a spider or a fly in his room, and cry hysterical for hours. Even if there is nothing at all...nothing makes him feel better. Dark #2 he needs 2 night lights in his room, he needs a light in the hall and one at the stairs. And death #3, he has been saying "I can't sleep because I kept thinking of ways you can die mom" he's thought of my car going off a bridge, car crash, fire, drowning, falling down the stairs, someone stealing me, bad guy hurting me, these types of things. And a simple, it's okay honey, nothing bad will happen, Nope that does not work. He cries (and he's NOT a crier) and gets shaky, nervous, sweaty, like panic attacks or something. Tonight was bad, he swore there was a knat in his room and it was landing on his face, he was nuts about this. I assured him, went to his room, checked it all out, saw nothing, still he was not "safe" he put 3 comforters on his face and finally feel asleep, but these nights it is not good sleep. On average he sleeps 6 hours a night, maybe 4 some nights due to his phobias. I just don't know what to do. I don't know if this is a phase, he'll grow out of, or if it's because the drug reactions. Some docs told me that he would NEVER have that reaction with- 1 pill....that he must have a mental defect that just displayed itself because of the drug effect. But then I had docs tell me no, he's just sensitive to these drugs and can not take them. I don't know if something more is happening or if this is a 6 yr olds vivid imagination and normal fears?