While my difficult child is driving me nuts, I do see a lot of progress. Living with her is like living in a storm as she is so all over the place and very overwhelming. However, our lives are much improved (for now, anyway). She is noisy, intrusive, and in and out all day. However, there hasn't been any rages or violence and only minimal cursing. I hope it lasts!!! I am almost able to actually parent her. I can nag at her to pick up after herself without her freaking out on me. I wish I didn't have to nag at her at all, but I can't expect miracles right? If she does get angry with me she is able to control it a lot better now. She doesn't let it go too far. For instance: this morning she did not want to wake up for her partial program, the more I told her to get up the angrier she got. She flung her covers off and said "Shut the F@#k up, I f@#$%^g hate you". Sounds bad, but really that is as far as it went. When she came downstairs the first thing she did was apologize to me. She said she was just tired. I told her that I was tired too and that is not an excuse to speak to me that way. On the way out the door she apologized again!!! Not like her. She would normally curse me out and keep on cursing me out, bang a few things, slam doors and leave with no remorse whatsoever. Good job difficult child!!! The average parent would not recognize this as a good thing, but I'm sure some of you can. She is slowly coming out of denial. That is monumental for her. Yesterday we had an intake appointment with a Boce program. Long story short, it just wasn't for her. Too much freedom and not enough structure. I thought she was going to be very upset when the principle told us that this program was not right for her. She handled it beautifully!!! When we got to the car, she turned to me and said: "Mom, I couldn't go here, I would only end up in trouble". I was floored when I heard this. I am so proud of her for recognizing that she couldn't handle it. That is a huge for her. Does this mean soon she will finally admit to being "mentally ill"?? Okay, I'm reaching for the stars, baby steps - right? I'm a little nervous about today. She wants so much to be off most of her medications. She thinks that we are going to take her off the Lithium. That was the original plan, however she is doing so well that I feel she should stay on it. So I spoke to her therapist and the doctor at partial today on speaker phone with her in the room. She heard me say that I don't want to take her off the Lithium, so she will probably come home and give me hell for it. Let's see if she is able to control herself, I am keeping my fingers crossed that this will not escalate into a rage. We'll see.... Thanks for listening.