difficult child had a better morning today. He stated that he still felt horrid with things not connecting, legs feeling weird, ect. but he felt more confident. Thank you Xanax! He had complained of being tired at 7:00 am so I sent him back to bed for 1/2 hour. He rested with his eyes closed in a darkened quiet room and didn't give much fuss when I told him it was time to get up and get going. He had a therapist appointment today and asked that I go in with him right away. He wanted to know what I thought of different things. therapist had received and read the school questionnaire. He stated that the school was only seeing seperation anxiety in the morning and once difficult child was settled into class (IOW mom is gone) he does fine. He is learning and is a solid student. No problems socializing or academically! I am giving some thoughts to that and formulating questions for next week's visit regarding seperation anxiety. It is just not making complete sense to me. Wouldn't you think that would arise in other areas such as not leaving mom's side when shopping? Once at Wal-Mart, he is off on his own. He knows I am not following him. I know to find him in electronics or the toy dept (and sometimes kitchen supplies) but he has no idea how to find me if he needs me because I can be anywhere in the store. This is the same at any local store. He knows he has great days at school so why is he not wanting to go? Why is it o.k. to run around Wal-Mart not knowing where mom is and not knowing anyone there but can not make yourself go to school where you like everyone, are doing well and know how to call mom? therapist talked to difficult child about focusing on positive self talk in the mornings. He also tried to explain how anxiety makes your body feel pains - they are real but there is no known cause and they are not deadly. He was also surprised that the 48 hr EEG was scheduled out so far. He suggested that I call psychiatrist's office and ask for psychiatrist to personally call me back. I am then to let him know the EEG date. therapist stated that psychiatrist will not be happy that it is that far out and will call the neurology dept to see if he could put a rush on it - that there should be urgent spots available and if neurology knows that a doctor believes this is a priority then they will work to get him in sooner. I will make that call tomorrow. And the best thing? difficult child did not mention once tonight that he was dying. He felt so much better after the therapist visit. He actually hasn't fortold his impending death very often since I was short with him the other day on the way to school. I still included it on the therapist report so therapist talked to him about why he thought he was dying. difficult child still "reports" things to me but not in the whining I-can't-stand-this sort of way. On the way to the appointment today, something weird happened again. It was the length of a panic attack but there was no fear. All of a sudden difficult child stated, "Oh weird! What is happening?" His head and stomach were building up and all of a sudden, BOOM, something weird hit him. I told him to close his eyes and rest which he did and felt better within five minutes. No throwing up this time though and no intense fear. Does anyone know if you can have a panic attack without the fear?