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<blockquote data-quote="DammitJanet" data-source="post: 158166" data-attributes="member: 1514"><p>I struggled for years not knowing there was a name for what I was going through. I thought I was just a bad person or lazy or or or ...something! I knew there was something different about me because "normal" folks dont throw intense rages as adults or see blood dripping down the walls or even see faces in flowered curtains. I was lucid enough to know that what I was seeing wasnt real but I saw it but I was too afraid to tell anyone what I saw because I was afraid people would think I was crazy!</p><p></p><p>So I mustered on and presented as pretty on the ball to everyone in the outside world but in my safe world in the home I lost it on a regular basis. I could only hold it together for so long. It got harder and harder the older I got.</p><p></p><p>I tried dribbling little bits of the facts to attempt to get help over the years but no one picked up on the fact that I was really in dire need so that didnt work.</p><p></p><p>Finally when Cory was diagnosed with bipolar at age 13, I read the book The Bipolar Child and had a breakthrough. That book was written about ME! It gave me a starting point and the freedom to go to someone and admit what I was afraid to admit to before. I got an intake appointment at mental health where they confirmed what I already knew by then and then one day when I was at the end of my rope...I called a private psychiatrist and went in on an emergency basis and got put on medications. That was the beginning of my road to recovery. Ok...not recovery...but road to hope. Before that I dont think I had hope. There are still days I dont have a whole lot of it but I keep on fighting on. </p><p></p><p>I have a pretty nasty case of bipolar that wasnt treated for way too long. Its not helped by being co-morbid with borderline personality disorder and a couple of chronic pain disorders. Im a pretty grumpy gus quite a bit of the time.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="DammitJanet, post: 158166, member: 1514"] I struggled for years not knowing there was a name for what I was going through. I thought I was just a bad person or lazy or or or ...something! I knew there was something different about me because "normal" folks dont throw intense rages as adults or see blood dripping down the walls or even see faces in flowered curtains. I was lucid enough to know that what I was seeing wasnt real but I saw it but I was too afraid to tell anyone what I saw because I was afraid people would think I was crazy! So I mustered on and presented as pretty on the ball to everyone in the outside world but in my safe world in the home I lost it on a regular basis. I could only hold it together for so long. It got harder and harder the older I got. I tried dribbling little bits of the facts to attempt to get help over the years but no one picked up on the fact that I was really in dire need so that didnt work. Finally when Cory was diagnosed with bipolar at age 13, I read the book The Bipolar Child and had a breakthrough. That book was written about ME! It gave me a starting point and the freedom to go to someone and admit what I was afraid to admit to before. I got an intake appointment at mental health where they confirmed what I already knew by then and then one day when I was at the end of my rope...I called a private psychiatrist and went in on an emergency basis and got put on medications. That was the beginning of my road to recovery. Ok...not recovery...but road to hope. Before that I dont think I had hope. There are still days I dont have a whole lot of it but I keep on fighting on. I have a pretty nasty case of bipolar that wasnt treated for way too long. Its not helped by being co-morbid with borderline personality disorder and a couple of chronic pain disorders. Im a pretty grumpy gus quite a bit of the time. [/QUOTE]
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