Today was graduation day. It was an absolutely gorgeous day. Brilliant, sunny skies, cool breeze, not too hot. It was so heartwarming to cheer on all of the kids that I have known for so many years. B, who got a full ride to OSU. Ashlee, easy child's former girlfriend, graduated National Honor Society with a 3.97 GPA. A, who struggled to graduate this year. And so many names that I recognized even if I couldn't put faces to. But there was this hurt in my heart when they asked the parents of the 2009 graduates to stand and be noticed, because I couldn't stand. There was a hurt in my heart to not hear easy child's name or see him walk to receive his diploma. There was a hurt in my heart to see all of these kids who I have watched grow up move on to another phase in their life that my son won't be moving onto come fall. There was a hurt in my heart that he wasn't even there to celebrate for his friends. easy child is so lost. He is so confused. He doesn't know which way is up. He feels like a loser and he thinks his friends think he's a loser even though the evidence indicates otherwise. A wide range of emotions today.