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<blockquote data-quote="DammitJanet" data-source="post: 448258" data-attributes="member: 1514"><p>Lisa...you nailed it.</p><p></p><p>Exhausted, I dont know if you read the poem that I posted to Daisy Face a month or two ago but you can go back and look for it and see if that strikes any chords...but I guess that isnt really what you are asking. You are asking how to handle things. Well, I dont have to handle me do I? LOL. </p><p></p><p>I do realize now that I have pushed people away for a long long time. I still dont trust anyone completely. I have a huge issue with the word love. I cant believe anyone can really love me or that they will really stay with me because they want to be there. I honestly thought that Tony (my youngest two kids father) was going to hit the door the day Cory hit 18 and I was the most surprised person on the face of this earth when he didnt. He never knew I thought he was going to leave. It never crossed his mind. It was all in my mind. See...I dont feel that I am worth loving so I am determined to force him to leave me so I am mean as a rattlesnake in order to push him away first. But thankfully he is stubborn as a mule...28 years now! and he wont leave. </p><p></p><p>I can be ugly, mean, snippy, rage, omg...its bad. But I have learned now with some therapy and medications...and Im better...still not good or great...but better. </p><p></p><p>With teens, its hard because so many of them are somewhat push me pull me as teens anyway. I think you just need to keep calm and not take things personally.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="DammitJanet, post: 448258, member: 1514"] Lisa...you nailed it. Exhausted, I dont know if you read the poem that I posted to Daisy Face a month or two ago but you can go back and look for it and see if that strikes any chords...but I guess that isnt really what you are asking. You are asking how to handle things. Well, I dont have to handle me do I? LOL. I do realize now that I have pushed people away for a long long time. I still dont trust anyone completely. I have a huge issue with the word love. I cant believe anyone can really love me or that they will really stay with me because they want to be there. I honestly thought that Tony (my youngest two kids father) was going to hit the door the day Cory hit 18 and I was the most surprised person on the face of this earth when he didnt. He never knew I thought he was going to leave. It never crossed his mind. It was all in my mind. See...I dont feel that I am worth loving so I am determined to force him to leave me so I am mean as a rattlesnake in order to push him away first. But thankfully he is stubborn as a mule...28 years now! and he wont leave. I can be ugly, mean, snippy, rage, omg...its bad. But I have learned now with some therapy and medications...and Im better...still not good or great...but better. With teens, its hard because so many of them are somewhat push me pull me as teens anyway. I think you just need to keep calm and not take things personally. [/QUOTE]
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