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Carol Burnett about her daughter " I had to love her enough to let her hate me"+
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<blockquote data-quote="Signorina" data-source="post: 589280"><p>My son IS doing well for now. He is treading water in the shallow end and I am grateful, but the real test will be when his peers return for the summer. I am not looking forward to that trial by fire. His head is too easily turned. I am doing my best to keep my eyes wide open, I miss my naivete. I want so much to believe that he is getting back on track, but the honest truth is that he had nowhere else to go. And he has lied so easily and so well in the past; he literally played us for fools as you all know -- and I can't quiet that subconscious thought in my head. </p><p></p><p>When I wrote this after seeing the show, I couldn't think of a word for the look I saw in CBs and BWs face. But I know what it was - grief. Pure grief. The grief we all experienced when our kids took that awful fork in the road and we watched them and it became painfully apparent that we were powerless to change their path - we couldn't force them or cajole them or pray them into changing course. I am not sure I will ever get over that grief.</p><p></p><p>And that grief lead me to obsessing over everything I did or said soso afraid that the wrong words or actions would make him worse. And in many ways, I am still skating around many things I would like to say to him, I still want to shake some sense into him, but I am so afraid of spooking him. And i guess that's something that only a fellow loving parent of a substance abuser can understand. I thank God everyday for the friendship I have found here.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Signorina, post: 589280"] My son IS doing well for now. He is treading water in the shallow end and I am grateful, but the real test will be when his peers return for the summer. I am not looking forward to that trial by fire. His head is too easily turned. I am doing my best to keep my eyes wide open, I miss my naivete. I want so much to believe that he is getting back on track, but the honest truth is that he had nowhere else to go. And he has lied so easily and so well in the past; he literally played us for fools as you all know -- and I can't quiet that subconscious thought in my head. When I wrote this after seeing the show, I couldn't think of a word for the look I saw in CBs and BWs face. But I know what it was - grief. Pure grief. The grief we all experienced when our kids took that awful fork in the road and we watched them and it became painfully apparent that we were powerless to change their path - we couldn't force them or cajole them or pray them into changing course. I am not sure I will ever get over that grief. And that grief lead me to obsessing over everything I did or said soso afraid that the wrong words or actions would make him worse. And in many ways, I am still skating around many things I would like to say to him, I still want to shake some sense into him, but I am so afraid of spooking him. And i guess that's something that only a fellow loving parent of a substance abuser can understand. I thank God everyday for the friendship I have found here. [/QUOTE]
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