Christmas has always been my favorite holiday and actually the only one I really truly enjoy. But this year I seem to have the spirit oozing out my pores. I have been up on cloud nine since thanksgiving at least, probably before that even. I haven't even decorated yet. Doesn't matter. I'm having a blast. And I'm not just doing it for my family either. I'm playing elf to 2 of Nichole's bff's that we basically consider family they spent so much time with us growing up. D is the girl I ask for prayers for as she's bipolar and Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and was suicidal over her abusive husband and all the crud he was pulling. The girl listened when I talked to her, heard what I had to say, admitted herself for a medication change, and is beginning to stabilize. She moved away her senior year with her family out to Kansas. Her family was very abusive/neglectful and this girl has known far too much heartache in her 21 yrs. But instead of whining (like katie) and feeling sorry for herself she has always struggled no matter what the odds to move forward to have the life she always dreamed of. Being a difficult child........she stumbles and falls, she makes mistakes (big ones like Nichole lol) but she always learns from them and moves forward. D blew me away the other day when she told me she'd graduated from the LPN program and has been working as a nurse for the past 18 mos!!! I'm so very proud of this girl. She has a lot to work on, she knows that and is trying so very hard. She has no contact with her family due to her childhood. But that leaves her no one but us and her baby boy. So Nichole is sending her a present via mail and something for the baby. I'm sending her cookies to help make it a homey type xmas for her. Then there is N. Also from a really bad family. Awesome girl, a survivor, a fighter. Somehow got her loser husband to actually go to work, omg that all by itself is a miracle! lol N has serious health issues due to her mother's addiction and drug use during pregnancy. But doesn't complain. Doesn't let it stop her. Lost her first baby due to premature birth. (and those health issues) Now has a 1 yr old beautiful baby boy. Both N and her husband got laid off a couple of weeks ago. So I asked easy child if she wanted to give the toys she planned to give to toys for tots to N for her little boy as they're age appropriate for him and I know N is really strapped for cash and how much she would appreciate it. easy child was more than happy to do it, like I said N is family to us. And again I'm baking cookies for her as she doesn't have the extra cash to go out and buy baking supplies.....and aw heck, I just wanna cuz I wanna, she's like my kid. lol (I'm gonna pick the lil guy up a stocking at the dollar store and some stocking stuffers too lol) I enjoy xmas every year. I swear I do. I'm happy and cheerful, so much so it annoys the heck out of husband. But I dunno...........It's like 1000 fold this year........maybe more. I'm watching freecycle like a hawk for things I might have that others need.........I'm keeping an eye out on fb for local friends who may be having a hard time and directing them to either services or putting them on our cookie list..........I'm making stuff out the waazoo........I've got xmas carols playing all day long.......or I'm humming them......... I even added an extra day for katie and family to stay so the grands actually will get to play with their presents.......... (3 days and 2 nights with M, I MUST be out of my mind!) I even told my Mom she is more than welcome to come up after xmas. (bro can't bring her on the holiday itself) That we'd be happy to do the generation pictures she loves to do. (if the kids don't I'll break their neck, the woman is 74 yrs old an that is ancient for my family, it won't kill them and someday the grands will appreciate it) I don't know what happened. I used to get super excited when the kids were little, but this is more than that even. husband and I don't have squat. Seriously. We're hanging on by our nails waiting to hear if the darn unemployment extension is going to pass. If it doesn't.........whoa boy we're in BIG trouble. Pennies are screaming we're squeezing them so tight. (too bad they don't reproduce) But I've barely spent anything. Even the baking won't cost that much as I'll get all the supplies at aldi's and easy child and Nichole are splitting the cost. Seriously. Is there a xmas spirit bug out there? He must have bit me twice this year. Or I've gone off the deep end. husband keeps threatening to buy me an elf hat.