Thanks guys.
She came over this morning. I handed her the phonebook and the phone. How's that for subtle?
She just looked ashamed and humiliated and said she'd give psychiatrist a call. phht. I can understand that. This was her 1st huge psychotic break and it was a dilly, even by my Mom's standards. It scares her, I can see it. But boyfriend needs to stay firm. It's a huge indication she has to have her medications back, and may even need a new evaluation done.
She stayed all day. Not sure why. I left for school at noon cuz my morning class was cancelled. At that point she still hadn't called. But she just called me so I asked her. And she said she tried but they must have been at lunch and they didn't answer. I told her she can come over and call them tomorrow. They take a late lunch and she may have caught them then. She wasn't here when I got home.
She said she'd try them again tomorrow. So we'll see.
Other than reminding her, this part I have to detach from. Has to be her decision.
And frankly I'm over my stress limits. I'm trying to detach where I can but honestly, can't do it too much as the next episode can be any moment. That's how quickly her thinking/moods shift. So I have to inform my instructors what is going on so I can keep my cell phone on in class, even if it's just vibrate. She's been "ok" the past 2 days but as I said, that can change in an instant.
Frigging exhausting.
School? It will be what it will be. Once again I'm behind and playing catch up. I just keep putting 1 foot in front of the other in hopes of making it to the end. At this point, it's all I can do. ugh
Clinicals tomorrow. Got to toss my scrubs in the wash and hunker down and study pharm again. I swear I eat breathe and sleep that friggin subject.
(((hugs)))
