I have been absent from the board the past 3 weeks because I have spent most of it inpatient. My BiPolar (BP) was so out of control it was really scary. After 7 days inpatient I went to outpatient partial for 5 days and then went back in for another 6 days. I'm much better but the medication that seems to have helped is giving me really ratty side effects (dry heaves for 3 days now) and I don't know if it will get better. Anyway, at home tonight has been stressful but I am counting my blessings - health insurance to cover my stay and my medications wife to hold down the fort who has enough leave built up to be home full time (with pay) right now medications that help psychiatric hospital to go to with reasonably competent psychiatrists (mine is now a better educated psychiatrist than she was before she met me thanks to my having severe side effects she had never seen before or occurred at doses so low she could't believe it until the nursing staff backed me up) a roommate who was not psychotic and was a delightful companion for 5 of the 6 days I was on the Thought Disorders ward (they didn't have room on the high functioning unit) - you get to know someone really well when you choose to stay in your room together for 5 days so that you have someone to talk to who is not psychotic with or without paranoia a home to come home to a family to come home to a mind that mostly works pretty darn well I have resolved to take it easy for the next couple of weeks and try to stay focused on self-care and self-awareness. I do NOT want to go back to the hospital. So your good wishes, prayers and ju ju are welcome as I figure out how to re-enter the world outside the hospital and keep my cool at the same time.