As I was walking downstairs to take the boys to the bus stop this morning, I heard SS10 singing "Hush little baby" but changing the words to "I'll kill you." He was singing...yelling loudly. We don't let him watch scary movies that have this sort of thing in them, so I don't know where he is picking this up from or if it's from his imagination. These types of words have been coming out of his mouth more and more. Most of the time it has been in the heat of the moment when he has lost his mind. This time was not. In fact, everything had been going smoothly this AM until I went upstairs to get changed to go to the bus stop. That's when the yelling started. He always starts yelling every time I leave the room. I usually ask him why he is yelling, tell him it's inappropriate and to stop. Most of the time he is shouting nothing in particular...I think mostly just to hear his voice. Today was creepy though. I'm becoming more and more fearful of him. I have a key lock on my bedroom door, and I lock it every night. My husband knows I am scared, and knows to keep it locked. My husband was trying to get him into in-patient treatment, but because he is not raging right now, they will not admit him. He was advised to call for an evaluation, but has not be able to schedule anything because the lady who does the intakes has been out of the office sick the last couple of days. I'm waiting for my husband to make his morning call, so I can tell him what happened. I don't like to bother him at work...he has a hard enough time concentrating as it is. I hope he can get a hold of the intake person today or someone else if she is still out sick.