I'm not in a good place right now. I'm just not. I couldn't even go into explaining what's been going on because it wouldn't make sense. My relationship with my daughter is basically me trying to avoid talking to her. Me, building a concrete wall around myself so that I can function. Me, silently dying inside. It's really hard. She's partying every night. I don't see her much, but text or talk to her almost daily. She got a job, she lost the job. She lost her living arrangement (basically because she needs to be out all night ant that doesn't work when your boyfriend's mom lives with you and you're trying to keep up the lie that your A-OK). She's told everyone she's pregnant (but she's aborting it). And she's fine. Narcissistically, annoying and fine. After finding out she lost this most recent job, we let her know we knew the truth so she's stop lying about it -- she's basically a PATHOLOGICAL liar -- I had to ask her how a 19-year-old girl manages to live on no income. Do I really want to know, she asked me. No. I can guess, I have guessed. I'm dancing. Privately. Private stripping for guys. First she tries to tell me it is at a local strip club. When I explained that I can easily verify that, she admitted no, it is at hotels and stuff. Escorting, kind of. But no sex or anything. I told her she's be prostituting within nine months, then, more than likely. I told her how dangerous it was to meet up with some man you don't even know and she - seriously - didn't "get it" at all. Through all the times she's "been raped" I told her that chances are it will happen again if she continues to live the lifestyle she's living. I'm sick. Seriously, I don't know what she's doing (drugs, sex-wise) or what's going on in her head. I don't know if it is the drugs taking over her, or if she's got a serious mental illness. I just feel like I'm going crazy. I just feel sad. I feel like I need to buffer myself and my family, but I feel like I'm of no support to my kid who is making some of the most idiotic choices in the world. I'm scared. Sad. Angry beyond belief.