I got through the irritability, the anxiety attacks - ironically, jonesing for a smoke makes me feel like I can't breathe - and all that. Only slept about an hour and a half last night. Took the kids to school. Went back to bed. easy child woke me because difficult child 2's mom was on the phone and the school said he wasn't there (they misplaced him - he was there). Worried about that until we got it figured out. Went back to sleep. Got up to get the kids from school. Got home. difficult child was making something to eat. I was reading the board. Doing ok with distracting myself, trying not to think about it. Then all of a sudden, out of nowhere I burst into tears. I don't mean I got teary. I meant out came this sob and all that. Just like that. *snap* I will try again tomorrow.