So I talked to both of the Residential Treatment Center (RTC)'s that have openings, and I know who I want to go with. They are still doing insurance stuff and have not officially accepted difficult child as a pt, but the access coordinator was fairly sure they would accept him. Secure transport is arranged and insurance will pay, and wrap coordinator asked if they use restraints or hand cuffs, and only in extreme circumstances. The gentleman said he had spent 3 hours convincing a boy to get in the car last week.....that says a lot. difficult children old psychiatrist works at this facility.... .i asked the access lady. She asked if I wanted him to treat difficult child. I said I was not against that, that ash I saw out there were 2 ways to look at it. He knows difficult child and knows more of the family stuff, but sometimes a set of fresh eyes are good too. I said I would like to speak with him (i don't expect him to call but just wanted to mention that). I said why don't we ask psychiatrist if he wants to ready difficult child? She says she would bring it up to him. She also said I could be present at the medication management appts, but I could not be intrusive (i do not plan on that) and that psychiatrist did need time alone with difficult child. That is fine, I understand and respect that. Wrap coordinator is looking into getting me gas vouchers to help out with the expense of driving over there.....i told her I realized I woulda be going over more than some parents and would have to part for some of it myself, but any help would be appreciated. I should know by tomorrow by about this time if it is all a go, and I should like to go up there thursday. I want to have transport come about 7:15, that way easy child will be at school, and I can tell difficult child about what is going on about 7, so I do not have to deal with a meltdown our tears for too long. My gut is in knots, my heart is aching, but my head knows this is what I need to do for my son. I don't want him following in the footprints of his father or uncle, and I don't know what else to do to help him. I so hope he does not hate me when all this is over.