So we are planning to go to Mesa Verde for a few days during spring break. We have not been able to vacation because of difficult child being in RTCs and us having to save money and be there to attend meetings. She told me it was a lame trip and she wasn't going. It is something my husband loves (ancient history) and I have never been. It will be cheap and it gets us somewhere warm, where we can walk and climb and be active. I can't leave her here to torment my son-it's not fair to him. God knows what she will do here. I had a dream last night that I hired the huge bouncers that took her to the first Residential Treatment Center (RTC). They put her in our car, set the child locks and away we went. Loved that dream because I so want to MAKE her do something. I am mad at myself for still wanting this-but I do. The thing is, she always protests and then when we get there, she has a blast-this is true of day trips, which is all we have done in 2 years. She even told me that she knows we won't go if she won't go. She is" he)) bent for leather" to control us. I am so freaking mad. If we let her win on this one..... If we go and leave her then we are being stupid. Though she hasn't been stealing-who knows what she may do when we are gone. She might have people (druggies, men, ??/) over or destroy things, or, or, or! I wish my big husband and son would just pick her up and stuff her in the car. You darn pain of a kid!