Dear God-she did not come home last night. She got off of work at 2:00. Called me at school around 3:00 and asked (ha, ha) if she could go to a new friends she met through her lifelong friend. I said no-she had been out past her cerfew the night before and had to be to work at 7:00 am-I knew she was tired, and she needed a consequence. Of course I am just going through the motions because she does just as she wants. The deal is, if she has permission she can ask for a ride home, so that is the only reason she even asked. It is almost 7:00am and she has to be to work. Have not heard from her-no FB action. Don't know if she has a uniform and will show up at work or not. Her hat is gone and her name tag. Maybe her new uniform came yesterday and she took it with her??? Her shirt and the pants she has been wearing are here and dirty. I refuse to wash them when she has time all day. She is spiraling. Instead of flying right until court next Friday. We are going to ask for probation and a bunch of conditions like mandatory drug testing, counseling and psychiatrist compliance as well as cerfew, if they don't send her to detention. or jail (FA parents suggested we ask for these things) She thinks she is going to be treated as an adult and just get fines. If she looses her job, not a chance. Her brother know he will not get a dime out of her unless they garnish her check, hope they can. I'm exhausted from her and too much going on at school with my school choir performances, fieldtrips, kids who made it to regional science fair etc. etc. My mom is finially in a care center (what a lot of work on my brother's part with my help) It's all I can do to go to work and be sain. husband is so broken hearted and of course acts it out by being angry. She has been going through our stuff lately as well. We have any valuables locked away (don't have many). She is going through papers mostly-I don't understand? What is she looking for? I am sooo sad-I didn't think I could be more sad than I have. How are we going to make it until next Sep. Maybe we need to go back to our church and ask to have her put in another Residential Treatment Center (RTC) if they don't put her in jail(very unlikely). Just don't know. I feel so guilty for all the time she has been away but it is just unbearable with her here. Sorry for the ramble!