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???difficult child's Aware They Have BiPolar???????
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<blockquote data-quote="dreamer" data-source="post: 159216" data-attributes="member: 1697"><p>PS- I am the one of my sibs with a diagnosis of bipolar, so I have always been heavily scrutinezed, becuz I have this label. My BiPolar (BP) gave me hypomania....which for me has been a life saveing asset, as it t urns out. Had I not been hypomanic, I could not have held 2 and 3 jobs thru the years and also take care of my kids home and yard myself, I would have caved. Meanwhile my sister, she has no mental illness formal diagnosis...and noone bothered to ever scrutinize her. She drank, A LOT....and she often left her kids alone in her upstairs while she sat in neighbors yard at noon drinking not coffee tea or coke, but wine. I would try to point this out to mom and her dad, but, becuz I am the one diagnosis'ed BiPolar (BP), they usually assumed I was only trying to take the scrutiny off me and they never paid attention. </p><p>Being bipolar, I worked hard, becuz I had extraordinary energy leves to be able to put in long long hours and I capitalized on it. I waited tables in my teens and 20s and also went to real estate school on the side in spite of working double shifts. In HS I got my cosmetology certification, In mid 20s I studied criminal justice and first aid and sat in on police and firefighter exams and passed. I continued to wait tables as well as try all these other fields well into my 30s. In my 30s I went to CNA school and in my 40s I went to nurseing school. MY sister did not finish HS nor get a GED.......but she married a wealthy man. </p><p>My oldest difficult child is not hypomanic.....she runs more hypothemic, BUT becuz she has a BiPolar (BP) diagnosis, her school played hardball assuming she MIGHT go psychotic and be bizarre and treated her as if she were since she was first labeled BiPolar (BP) (her school was nervous of bipolar people due to media sensationalism of school shooters)- in spite of me and several psychiatrists, ndocs and tdocs trying to get the school to see HER and not just her diagnosis. She wound up getting diisassociative PTSD with extreme panic attacks, and has now been agoraphobic for a long time. Yes, her BiPolar (BP) is what created the groundwork for the PTSD and disassociation, but the PTSD and disassociation are far more negatively impacting her life. BUT people react and respond far quicker to her BiPolar (BP) diagnosis than to her PTSD and panic attack diagnosis'es. </p><p></p><p>And I cannot tell you how many times I have had a rheumetologist or GP tell me oh lets forget this BiPolar (BP) diagnosis here, we will pretend it is not here......you do not seem crazy to me.ACK! Altho when I was seeking the diagnosis for my Lupus and rheumatic illness, docs would look at my charts, see BiPolar (BP) in there and then try to tell me I was not really ill, it was all in my head. :-( it was a manifestation of my bipolar??? Yeesh. </p><p></p><p>All this can make it very very hard to admit even to yourself that you have bipolar disorder.</p><p>I would much rather someone attribute any mistake I make, or any goof up I commit to me just being dumb or haveing a blonde moment, or almost anything else than have someone decide every single thing I do that is not perfect is becuz I have bipolar. ANd truth is not every wrong or bad thing I do can be blamed on bipolar. SOme of my goof ups and mistakes are simply becuz humans are imperfect beings and we do make mistakes. Not all my moods are becuz of my bipolar, I can be happy or sad or angry and it can be normal for me to be those things if the situation calls for it. LOL, and- I have a brother who I worry about becuz he NEVER seems to have ANY mood for ANY occasion, he is so flat I sometimes wonder if he died inside or someething. So, if I win a lottoery and express some loud joy and excitement- he is quick to decide my bipolar is showing. THat can be frustrating.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="dreamer, post: 159216, member: 1697"] PS- I am the one of my sibs with a diagnosis of bipolar, so I have always been heavily scrutinezed, becuz I have this label. My BiPolar (BP) gave me hypomania....which for me has been a life saveing asset, as it t urns out. Had I not been hypomanic, I could not have held 2 and 3 jobs thru the years and also take care of my kids home and yard myself, I would have caved. Meanwhile my sister, she has no mental illness formal diagnosis...and noone bothered to ever scrutinize her. She drank, A LOT....and she often left her kids alone in her upstairs while she sat in neighbors yard at noon drinking not coffee tea or coke, but wine. I would try to point this out to mom and her dad, but, becuz I am the one diagnosis'ed BiPolar (BP), they usually assumed I was only trying to take the scrutiny off me and they never paid attention. Being bipolar, I worked hard, becuz I had extraordinary energy leves to be able to put in long long hours and I capitalized on it. I waited tables in my teens and 20s and also went to real estate school on the side in spite of working double shifts. In HS I got my cosmetology certification, In mid 20s I studied criminal justice and first aid and sat in on police and firefighter exams and passed. I continued to wait tables as well as try all these other fields well into my 30s. In my 30s I went to CNA school and in my 40s I went to nurseing school. MY sister did not finish HS nor get a GED.......but she married a wealthy man. My oldest difficult child is not hypomanic.....she runs more hypothemic, BUT becuz she has a BiPolar (BP) diagnosis, her school played hardball assuming she MIGHT go psychotic and be bizarre and treated her as if she were since she was first labeled BiPolar (BP) (her school was nervous of bipolar people due to media sensationalism of school shooters)- in spite of me and several psychiatrists, ndocs and tdocs trying to get the school to see HER and not just her diagnosis. She wound up getting diisassociative PTSD with extreme panic attacks, and has now been agoraphobic for a long time. Yes, her BiPolar (BP) is what created the groundwork for the PTSD and disassociation, but the PTSD and disassociation are far more negatively impacting her life. BUT people react and respond far quicker to her BiPolar (BP) diagnosis than to her PTSD and panic attack diagnosis'es. And I cannot tell you how many times I have had a rheumetologist or GP tell me oh lets forget this BiPolar (BP) diagnosis here, we will pretend it is not here......you do not seem crazy to me.ACK! Altho when I was seeking the diagnosis for my Lupus and rheumatic illness, docs would look at my charts, see BiPolar (BP) in there and then try to tell me I was not really ill, it was all in my head. :-( it was a manifestation of my bipolar??? Yeesh. All this can make it very very hard to admit even to yourself that you have bipolar disorder. I would much rather someone attribute any mistake I make, or any goof up I commit to me just being dumb or haveing a blonde moment, or almost anything else than have someone decide every single thing I do that is not perfect is becuz I have bipolar. ANd truth is not every wrong or bad thing I do can be blamed on bipolar. SOme of my goof ups and mistakes are simply becuz humans are imperfect beings and we do make mistakes. Not all my moods are becuz of my bipolar, I can be happy or sad or angry and it can be normal for me to be those things if the situation calls for it. LOL, and- I have a brother who I worry about becuz he NEVER seems to have ANY mood for ANY occasion, he is so flat I sometimes wonder if he died inside or someething. So, if I win a lottoery and express some loud joy and excitement- he is quick to decide my bipolar is showing. THat can be frustrating. [/QUOTE]
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