kt is being discharged 1/22/10. I have to be honest, friends ~ I am beyond terrified. I know what kt can do physically. She's a great deal stronger than me. We are working on expectations for kt to come home in family therapy; kt has been told that one hand on me results in placement elsewhere. I sobbed at that statement but my MD's put that in place with a report of vulnerable adult in place. kt's mostly responsive but now is experiencing many dissociative states & needs a great deal of one on one. The only carrot I have is her cell phone & friends. PCAs may be refused because the state has stopped providing them for anything other than "physical" conditions. I will argue that point with bipolar being a brain disorder. Just needed to get that off my shoulders. I want part of my family with me - I'm tired of living alone. I just don't want to walk about on egg shells or in fear.