I seem to have really strange nightmares relating to something to do with the boys. They are very frequent too. At least one or two a week. Either Billy wrecks my car. Sometimes I am in it and we drive off a cliff. Sometimes I am not in it and I find my car wrecked in my yard. Sometimes the nightmare has something to do with Cory and jail. Various episodes on that theme. Sometimes it has to do with Jamie and some sort of in the line of duty issue. I had a horrible nightmare last night about the boys being younger and all of us were at someones house. We were putting together some item that I cant recall but there was this electric drill type thing, ok...not exactly a drill...but it had this little metal piece sticking off this motor that stood up off this canister type thing. Almost looked like an oxygen tank but with the little metal piece that came out the side and the metal piece spun and you put something on there and held it there to make it. Now I cant remember what it was that was made. Well...Cory decided to hold the thing on by putting his mouth on there instead of his fingers. (remember its a dream) And this caused his teeth to spin around and around and come out of his head which caused his brain to disconnect and pull out from his head. He was sitting there with his brain gushing out of his mouth and we were screaming and crying and he was trying to stay alive while we were trying to rush to the hospital and I was saying in this monotone voice...my baby is dying, my baby is dying. I get to the hospital and they kept saying...you killed him, you killed him. I kept telling them, you dont understand, you cant stop him from doing things. My dreams are much more vivid now since the meningitis. They are more like the delusions I had.