I am really fried. I found this site on Monday, and have been crying ever since. I believe it is because it is obvious that difficult child is not right, and the realization that there are others like her. Everyone suggested a 6 hour exam but at this point we can not afford that. I have went through bouts of guilt because of how angry she makes me. She again has been caught stealing things during the night from the kitchen. The lying is going to kill me. It is extremelly hard because it is my job to catch people lying, stealing, breaking the law...and I am good at it. However, her behavior is influencing my job. How can I keep society safe if I am unable to handle my own home. The most frightening thing is I am so angry, and hurt that I am unable to show her positive attention or love. I do love her, and have urges to hug her and never let go. However she is not a hug person, and she usually opens her mouth and ruins the moment. I can not get close to her, because I know she will lie to me in the next breath. I am terribly ashamed to admit these things, but I have no one to actually talk to. difficult child read what I wrote, as I bawl my eyes out..yet she feels nothing. I told husband today that I was leaving, and he could have the children. I can not take one more thing.