amazeofgrace
A maze of Grace - that about sums it up
I think that difficult child I being back in JDC was my last straw, I have been feeling very down for a while now. X keeps calling off and on (when his girlfriend is out of the house), he keeps saying he loves and misses me, and is rarely sober. Toxic x-in-laws are still blaming me for x's alcoholism and now difficult child I being in JDC. difficult child II is in a partial hospital program is doing amazingly well (knock knock).
I just can't get out of this funk of feeling like my life is over. I am back in school PT. Living at home with my parents at 37. Working PT, difficult child's are a FT job. I have my friends and some family (I am an only child).
I still miss X and I know it's not healthy. I hate that I can't snuff out those emotions.
I know getting in shape and losing some weight would help my self esteem.
I am now rattling, again, sorry.....just in a funk....again....sigh.........
I just can't get out of this funk of feeling like my life is over. I am back in school PT. Living at home with my parents at 37. Working PT, difficult child's are a FT job. I have my friends and some family (I am an only child).
I still miss X and I know it's not healthy. I hate that I can't snuff out those emotions.
I know getting in shape and losing some weight would help my self esteem.
I am now rattling, again, sorry.....just in a funk....again....sigh.........