So, easy child got engaged in January. Found out in March they are expecting. He drives semi cross county and isn't home much, but requested to be home two weeks ago for the doctor appointment. To hear the heartbeat. They estimated she is about 8 - 9 weeks at the time. No heartbeat. He was sad. I had a misscarriage the first trimester and I am now really worried. They scheduled a cervical ultrasound this week. He won't be there. I am praying all is well, and it was just too early. They (doctor too) figured due date is 11-4-11. Hoping for 11-11-11. But, that could change with ultrasound. They have decided not to find out the sex. And decided not to reveal any names they choose. I am so afraid that I won't see baby. I don't see them, feeling left out of wedding plans....terrified I won't see baby too. He assures me I will. Guess I am just not good at being a mother...or mother in law. Can't keep updated on facebook....he won't be my friend. (but is friends with mother in law) He says he posts pictures and such when he goes out and would be embarrased for his mom to see the stupid things he does.