It seems like we can't even have a talk without things getting out of hand. Last night was difficult and so was this morning. If I say anything at all I get "I don't want to hear your LECTURES" So I emailed her. It may be a day or two before she reads it... but here is what I wrote. I hope it helps. It may be our only way to communicate. KSM
It is so hard...it seems like everything I say or do upsets you. We truly don't know how to diffuse the situation. If we keep talking, things get worse, if we don't respond, things get worse. I don't like the way things are now. I truly feel that we let you get away with poor behaviors and bad attitudes just so you don't have a melt down. We are not treating you with the same standards we expect from other people in the house. And that is not fair to you. I believe you are capable of so much more.
I know you want to be treated as a young adult, but you are not responding in appropriate ways. I feel that if we allow that to continue, we are not giving you the chance to grow and mature in to the adult you would be proud of. The person you are meant to be. A person with a future, friends, goals, a purpose in life. I don't want to be the one who limits you to the possibilities that are out there. You can do so many things with your life! I know that you think life is "right here, right now" But the majority of your life will be when you are out of school, having a career, raising a family. And decisions you make as a teenager might make it hard to have the wonderful life you deserve.
At church on Sunday, Suzanne talked about the clay pot. It's purpose is to be "filled" with things. But if the clay pot was not open, it was "full of itself" and could not receive the good things God wants to fill it with. It seems like you are full of anger and fear, and even though you dump those things out on the people around you, you fill back up with the same anger. I wish you could leave room for some happiness, kindness and love to grow there instead. All I want is for you to be happy and I don't know how to make that happen.
If you think that being happy is having your way all the time, and getting all the things you want, you will never find true happiness. Many people that have all they want are never fulfilled. It doesn't come from things. It is about having people you care about, doing things that help make the world a better place, even in a small insignificant way. Things you can be proud of.
Please don't let the disappointments of the past dictate that you have to keep filling yourself up with the same things. Let go. You deserved better as a young child. It wasn't right that you had so many losses. I understand that. But neither one of us can change the past. We can only try to change today so that all the tomorrows will be better. I hope you can get past the "lecture" and see that we truly want things to be better. Grandma
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It is so hard...it seems like everything I say or do upsets you. We truly don't know how to diffuse the situation. If we keep talking, things get worse, if we don't respond, things get worse. I don't like the way things are now. I truly feel that we let you get away with poor behaviors and bad attitudes just so you don't have a melt down. We are not treating you with the same standards we expect from other people in the house. And that is not fair to you. I believe you are capable of so much more.
I know you want to be treated as a young adult, but you are not responding in appropriate ways. I feel that if we allow that to continue, we are not giving you the chance to grow and mature in to the adult you would be proud of. The person you are meant to be. A person with a future, friends, goals, a purpose in life. I don't want to be the one who limits you to the possibilities that are out there. You can do so many things with your life! I know that you think life is "right here, right now" But the majority of your life will be when you are out of school, having a career, raising a family. And decisions you make as a teenager might make it hard to have the wonderful life you deserve.
At church on Sunday, Suzanne talked about the clay pot. It's purpose is to be "filled" with things. But if the clay pot was not open, it was "full of itself" and could not receive the good things God wants to fill it with. It seems like you are full of anger and fear, and even though you dump those things out on the people around you, you fill back up with the same anger. I wish you could leave room for some happiness, kindness and love to grow there instead. All I want is for you to be happy and I don't know how to make that happen.
If you think that being happy is having your way all the time, and getting all the things you want, you will never find true happiness. Many people that have all they want are never fulfilled. It doesn't come from things. It is about having people you care about, doing things that help make the world a better place, even in a small insignificant way. Things you can be proud of.
Please don't let the disappointments of the past dictate that you have to keep filling yourself up with the same things. Let go. You deserved better as a young child. It wasn't right that you had so many losses. I understand that. But neither one of us can change the past. We can only try to change today so that all the tomorrows will be better. I hope you can get past the "lecture" and see that we truly want things to be better. Grandma
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