difficult child has had to be kept home twice this week because i could not get him ready for school and i have agreed not to bring him to school if he is acting out. yesterday when he did go he attacked a little girl because she had a bouncy ball and he didn't. he got a pink sheet for violent behaviour, this goes in his permanent record. he had to be taken out of class so the teacher could talk to the other students because he would not stop yelling/talking loudly. this happens on a regular basis for him. i pick him up at 1 because they can not handle a whole day of him. i have also noticed at home that he has been flapping non stop for two days now. my 5yo had to be removed from school today because he was being defiant, yelling at the teacher and calling her names. he hit her with a book and also got a pink sheet for violent behaviour. he smashed up his lunch and spread it all over. he kept yelling out 'poopie poopie pants' at the ea. he had to be removed again. earlier this week he attacked his only friend and the police were called. i wonder what these people must think of me. i know i work closely with them to try and manage this but i think if i were them i would think i must be some kind of aweful to have my kids behave this way all the time. it is embarrasing to me, and sad. it makes me want to give up and cry because there doesn't seem to be anything i can do about it. they are so out of control, these two. my other two are well behaved. they go to a different school and daycare. i hate how other parents look at me when they see my kids and ask why they are doing that or if they are showing off and i tell them no they are always like this. i feel like a complete and total failure here and i think all the effort i am putting into this is for nothing because they just don't care either way.