I don't think I am strong enough for this...Last night, difficult child#2 was horrendous. It was 9:00pm. He was playing xbox. I was in the boys room reading difficult child#3 a book and I told difficult child#2 to turn off tv(he was in the next room) and come to bed. He didn't listen. After 3 more times of telling him, he came into bed with an attitude. Flopped on his bed,and started his fresh talk. It continued after the lights were out. I stay with difficult child#3 until he falls asleep so I asked him to stop talking so difficult child#3 could settle down to sleep. He just kept going. I told him no video games for a week, his reponse, I don't care...ok, no phone, I don't care..on and on it went. Then he called me a b#$%^... So, this morning, I picked up difficult child#1 at 6:45 to drive her to school from the foster home. She was equally delightful...with her usual attitude. Didn't say " hey, thanks for the ride Mom" Just switched around the radio stations, and asked me to buy her mousse for her hair. I said you have money that you earned helping foster mom with yard work. She said, I don't know when I'll be able to get to the store. I said, well, You'll have to figure it out. She said, as she got out of the car, Oh, you're a real good mother, NOT! I am so sick to death of these kids. I hate to feel this way. I feel like a failure. I wish I could run away and start over. husband is no help. Doesn't understand me. I think there is more to difficult child#2 than ADD. I am afraid he's bipolar. But I am in denial and just wishing my life was not so complex. And that I had children that were actually nice to me and appreciated things I do. I get so upset that I am underappreciated, that I tell them not to ask me for anything as they do nothing for me. No kind words etc. I have my own issues with depression and wake up every morning wondering why did I even have these kids????? I am so sad, overwhelmed, unhappy,scared, and just feel like giving up. The only good thing about today is that I see my therapist at 2 pm.