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<blockquote data-quote="Scent of Cedar *" data-source="post: 663923" data-attributes="member: 17461"><p>Do you know, I always thought D H family was not interesting. They never talk about the things my family does and when they do, they are exchanging positions, not exploring the ways someone else sees things and how and why that might be. They were always thinking about dinner, in the sense of eating good food, while I was always thinking about dinner in terms of ~ well, you all know how I think about that family dinner I am always posting about.</p><p></p><p><em>There is never any actual food on the table.</em></p><p></p><p>Ew.</p><p></p><p>Lord knows what that means about me.</p><p></p><p>On we go.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>Yes. Another kind of devastation altogether <em>especially as we see this through the filter of responsibility and what the Child in you felt as you went through the final months.</em></p><p></p><p>Five months, Copa. Were you in automaton?</p><p></p><p>The final months...oh, Copa.</p><p></p><p><img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/2012/sorrowsmiley2.gif" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":sorrowsmiley2:" title="sorrow :sorrowsmiley2:" data-shortname=":sorrowsmiley2:" /></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>And frost it, covering everything with humor. Snide, biting, cynical, shaming, shameful, shame-filled, laughter.</p><p></p><p><em>There is nothing wrong, here.</em></p><p></p><p><em></em></p><p><em></em></p><p>Yes. I always did journal my way into core issues and then, bring what I could not resolve myself to the therapist. And, not to keep harping about that first therapist here, except that I must still be putting him away, <em>but he could not even do that right, </em>Cedar hisses<em>.</em></p><p></p><p>Like a snake.</p><p></p><p>A diamond-back rattler.</p><p></p><p>Whoa. Just when you think you're a nice guy: Diamond-back Rattler Cedar.</p><p></p><p>Eyes?</p><p></p><p>Sapphire blue, Copa. That's me, alright.</p><p></p><p>Much of me still in the desert, then.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>Actually...you should have been loved and cherished, Serenity. We all should have known those feelings, should have felt that way about ourselves. We didn't know. We knew mom mattered. That's what we knew. </p><p></p><p>We knew automaton.</p><p></p><p>I just can't believe we survived it, that we came through it at all.</p><p></p><p>Copa, you are going to have to change the sheets and make room for Serenity and I in your bed. M can stay too, if he will tell us stories about his mother. Unfortunately, Copa, I am Diamond-back Rattler Cedar today and may be for some time.</p><p></p><p>We will make the bed as big as we need to then, and part of it will be desert, so I am comfortable in my Diamond Back form.</p><p></p><p>Forked tongue.</p><p></p><p>Sapphire eyes.</p><p></p><p>Yep.</p><p></p><p>That's me, alright.</p><p></p><p>Wait til M finds out he is having guests.</p><p></p><p></p><p><img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/emoticons/smashcomputer.gif" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":smashcomputer:" title="smashcomputer :smashcomputer:" data-shortname=":smashcomputer:" /></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>:O)</p><p></p><p>Cedar</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Scent of Cedar *, post: 663923, member: 17461"] Do you know, I always thought D H family was not interesting. They never talk about the things my family does and when they do, they are exchanging positions, not exploring the ways someone else sees things and how and why that might be. They were always thinking about dinner, in the sense of eating good food, while I was always thinking about dinner in terms of ~ well, you all know how I think about that family dinner I am always posting about. [I]There is never any actual food on the table.[/I] Ew. Lord knows what that means about me. On we go. Yes. Another kind of devastation altogether [I]especially as we see this through the filter of responsibility and what the Child in you felt as you went through the final months.[/I] Five months, Copa. Were you in automaton? The final months...oh, Copa. :sorrowsmiley2: And frost it, covering everything with humor. Snide, biting, cynical, shaming, shameful, shame-filled, laughter. [I]There is nothing wrong, here.[/I] [I] [/I] Yes. I always did journal my way into core issues and then, bring what I could not resolve myself to the therapist. And, not to keep harping about that first therapist here, except that I must still be putting him away, [I]but he could not even do that right, [/I]Cedar hisses[I].[/I] Like a snake. A diamond-back rattler. Whoa. Just when you think you're a nice guy: Diamond-back Rattler Cedar. Eyes? Sapphire blue, Copa. That's me, alright. Much of me still in the desert, then. Actually...you should have been loved and cherished, Serenity. We all should have known those feelings, should have felt that way about ourselves. We didn't know. We knew mom mattered. That's what we knew. We knew automaton. I just can't believe we survived it, that we came through it at all. Copa, you are going to have to change the sheets and make room for Serenity and I in your bed. M can stay too, if he will tell us stories about his mother. Unfortunately, Copa, I am Diamond-back Rattler Cedar today and may be for some time. We will make the bed as big as we need to then, and part of it will be desert, so I am comfortable in my Diamond Back form. Forked tongue. Sapphire eyes. Yep. That's me, alright. Wait til M finds out he is having guests. :smashcomputer: :O) Cedar [/QUOTE]
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