quicksand. Seriously I've about had it! Truly don't know how much more I can take. easy child (definitely more difficult child right now) is back in a serious depression (knew I was going to jinx it when I said how good she was doing). difficult child is over the edge in his thinking. One example is he came home today and wanted to watch Harry Potter. easy child was watching tv in the living room (she wouldn't go to school today-due to depression therapist and I believe). I told him he could go up to our (husband's and mine) to watch. That set up a 15 minute battle on his part because he felt easy child should move. No way was I having her move just because he wanted to watch especially when we have two other tvs he could watch on. Later I asked him to take his evening medications (an on again battle). Comes and vomits it up-right in front of easy child. Then he is dancing around moving his hips suggestively in front of her. I put an immediate stop to it but still. Then he decides he wants to hand her a fork but she wants to get her own (some Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) issue on her part-she likes to always check her own silverware). I'm on my way to get up and help with the situation and she hits him hard on the back of the head. easy child says she doesn't want to live her anymore. I can hardly blame her. I mentioned to difficult child he may need to go get some help for awhile which, of course, translated into I want him to go to juvy-don't know how he got that out of what I said. He says everyone hates him and thinks he's a bas****. He's crying and sees no fault of his own in any of this-truly he doesn't. On top of it all, we are probably going to end up with a snow day since we are in the middle of a blizzard warning. Oh joy to be home with both kids tomorrow. Luckily Thursday I have my therapist appointment. On Friday difficult child goes to respite for the weekend. On Monday he and easy child both have psychiatrist appts. I told husband if the psychiatrist asks what we think about hospitalization or anything else I'm going to say yes. Poor husband I think he is ready to explode as well-his blood pressure really goes up with all the stress (he is on an AD). Plus, his dad just had another toe amputated last night and hopefully they will be able to save the foot. I really hope hospitalization is available but I'm not sure it will be. Oh and he pulled the fire alarm at school today!! Thanks for listening; I know this is long. I needed to get it all out. Please keep a good thought we can make it until Monday when he has his psychiatrist appointment.