Well I got more complaints about me at work. Saying I don't notice people when they come up to my counter. I keep them waiting too long. I personally don't see it but others are complaining. And my supervisor is telling me to stop using my bipolar as an excuse. I don't know what else to do. When I'm working on a task I become hyperfocused. I tend to block out my surroundings so I can get stuff done. I have been doing this for years, but have only been getting recent complaints this year. This year I have been screwing up bad. And my supervisor went to a conference yesterday. She was on a panel to interview a bunch of people for a position at another school. She made it a point to tell me how everybody applying were college graduates and were overqualified. Then said I should feel lucky to have this job. Then she mentioned the complaints about me. Now I feel like my job is in jeopardy. If I lose this job I don't know what else I am going to do. Give up and on disability I guess. This is the only job I have ever had that I like. I hated all my other jobs. And now I suck at this one. And I suck as a mother. My house is always messy. I fall asleep at 7:00 at night, thanks to the Geodon, and half the time my kids skip brushing their teeth because I am not awake to make them do it. I am good for nothing as an employee and a good for nothing mother. I feel hopeless. I don't know where else to turn. Excuse me while I go and have my pity party.