I am a bit bewildered at the moment because since my son's terrible behaviour has been esculating I am just feeling more and more out of sorts so to speak. Its like I used to have this wonderful bond with my children but I don't feel so loving and bonded to them anymore. I just don't want to be around them and I honestly feel like I don't want to be their mum anymore. Has anyone ever gone through this I feel terrible for feeling it. Its like I can't feel the love I have inside me for them anymore I have disconnected myself. I don't know if its the stress from my neighbour calling child protective services on me that has made me disconnect or what. I mean CPS didn't come up with anything and even sent me a letter to say their investigation was over and they found no evidence of abuse but I think it has done damage to my relationship with my kids. I think I actually blame them in a way because I can literally be on my knees scrubbing the house and then go and have rest for a couple of hours from exhausion only to find the house in complete filth again if I try to go and do something for myself. Then people tell me my house is filthy. Do they think I don't know that? I am so tired of people having an opinion of how I parent my children just because they have their perfect children and their perfect house and their perfect life so its easy for them . I don't know what to do I mean I would have to be an idiot to keep scrubbing the house only for it to end up filthy again. I just can't wait till its time for my son's asessment .