No real new news tonight just feel the need to chat. I guess I'm alittle depressed 2nite. Talked with difficult child and casework on conference call today. They are still looking for a placement to best suit his needs. I really wish the best place was home but I know it's not. I just want to go take him from the shelter and bring him home and have him do right. he promises if he comes home things will be different and he will do whatever he has to do. I want so much to believe him and in a way I do. I'M SO CONFUSED!!! I go thru these moods of being ok and knowing he need to be put some place to get help and then thinking if he comes home instead he would behave and go to school and stay away from the drugs, etc, etc. How do we as parents just leave our kids? how do we walk away and hope things will be better? I feel like I am abandoning him!!!! I'm his mom and I should not let him hurt this way. HELP I'M NOT DOING TOO GOOD TONIGHT.