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Signorina
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My dad's been gone for 4.5 years...and it's been a really long time since I've forgotten that he is gone. Yet, just for a sec when H answered the phone and said "hi dad", I momentarily forgot and then wondered what the heck my dad wanted... (Obviously, my father in law rarely calls!)
And then I remembered he is long gone; and really started to cry. I don't know why I am sharing this except that I somehow need to tell someone. H will think I am nuts.
I am really longing for ife to be happy and carefree again. There was a time when my biggest concern was what to make for dinner or a easy child who left lots of dirty clothes on the floor or colored on the walls...(painted the carpet with baby lotion, got into my lipstick, had to stay in at recess for random naughtiness -I miss those days)
I am so weary and so weary of being weary...
And then I remembered he is long gone; and really started to cry. I don't know why I am sharing this except that I somehow need to tell someone. H will think I am nuts.
I am really longing for ife to be happy and carefree again. There was a time when my biggest concern was what to make for dinner or a easy child who left lots of dirty clothes on the floor or colored on the walls...(painted the carpet with baby lotion, got into my lipstick, had to stay in at recess for random naughtiness -I miss those days)
I am so weary and so weary of being weary...