I swear I am a natural-born doormat! I have loved horses my whole life - and would have owned my own if finances hadn't always been such an issue... And why have a not been able to keep a career-track type of job so as to have the extra income for riding lessons and other fun things? - difficult child issues And why did I have to quit my part-time job at the stable down the street two years ago? - difficult child And who did we drive an hour each way every week all last summer so that she could participate in Equine Therapy? - difficult child And who was completely nasty to her mother about said Equine Therapy? - difficult child This year, the opportunity to lease a trail horse for practically nothing fell into my lap. And today, I was offered a pony for DS to ride any time he wanted to accompany me on the trails. I am in heaven! Or at least...I should be... But no, here I am feeling guilty that I have not made arrangement to make sure there was a horse for difficult child to ride. Yes, difficult child - that same kid who made every other riding opportunity a big, hurtful, hassle and who sucked the fun out of even visiting a stable with all the complaints and nasty comments. What is wrong with me???