As some of you know from my other thread earlier in the week, my difficult child has gone into full blown relapse. As the week progressed, things continued to get worse. Friday we met with the director of the recovery school. My son has some serious refractions against him. . .taking drugs to school, bringing them inside the building (hiding them there) providing them to another student (who is also struggling with recovery) who got high in the bathroom at school...lying repeatedly to the counselor instead of coming clean. He initially said difficult child would have to be expelled due to the seriousness of the infractions. My heart nearly dropped out of my body. Inside, I began to have a full blown panic attack. This program was not only good for my son, but for me and my husband. We have come to know the other parents during family group therapy. We dont feel so alone in this battle. Plus, where do we go from here?? This is the only recovery school in the state! After a bit though, difficult child said to the counselor "What does it matter, im never going to see you again." :*( *bawl* He is just absolutely hopeless. The director changed his tune and said punishment is now minimum 3 days suspension, 10 hrs community service. We all think difficult child needs to return to inpatient treatment, but are allowing him one last chance to turn it around. In the meantime, im absolutely terrified of him taking his life. Many of you may remember, last time we were in this place (feeling of hopelessness and overwhelming urge to use with no avenue to do so) he tried to hang himself. Keep us in your prayers.